I cheated after 23 yrs of marriage. I thought I loved my AP but it turned out to be just a fantasy. I chose to stay with my H mostly bc at my age I didn't want to start all over again, alone & working 3 jobs to support myself. I wish I could have been braver but as you get older you realize loneliness is all it's cracked up to be. Besides, H & I have common goals. So I figured better the devil you know. We are good friends but not lovers. No sex at all. We sleep facing away from one another. I don't regret it.

And before the BS's come to attack me.....I was a BS 6 yrs before I was a CS, so yes, I know how you feel. I went thru all the pain a BS goes thru.....wondering if my H was going to find a way to leave me with nothing, realizing I wasn't the woman he wanted anymore, so scared not knowing what was coming next. So, there was no remorse when I got the chance to find what I thought was love with someone else. But, it turned out the joke was on me.

Thank you, CloverMoon.

I've been married 16 years and we have 2 children. I fell in love with my AP who was a long time friend of both my husband and l. When that happened, as it was never the intent, I broke it off with AP and returned full force to the marriage, but find it almost unbearable. Totally agree with you on not wanting to be alone, broke, with my children and family shattered.

I loved my husband before all this. We have common goals and he is a good man. I just can't go back to how it was before and can't move forward. I feel stuck in this limbo. I'm hoping that this is a temporary thing, but can't find anyone else in similar circumstances. Thank you for sharing your story.

I have heard by many women......fake it til you make it. It is true & it really works. Try it for at least a month. Good luck!

Totally agree with you on not wanting to be alone, broke, with my children and family shattered.
look, if your husband loved you
he wouldn't have made so you needed to cheat
cheaters only ever cheat because they are forced to thats just a fact