I'm the last person to lecture y"all about cheating. I've done my dirt the last 4 years. But now there's not trust. My cheating has caused him to at least appear like he's cheating. And given him the ability to hide his stuff(lock his computer or phone) because he didn't cheat he says. He's currently advertised on a sex site as single. And what can I say? He's obviously still angry but says we can try therapy. I asked if he'd say he was married if someone messaged him on the site and he said basically why did it matter. I'm half his age and he pays the bills so either I try to make it alone as a student or try to get a sugardaddy, been down that road before and I'd rather not. What a mess!