Cheaters Anonymous Community Group
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Well I ignored all of you accept one.
I had a secret rendezvous with my guy behind my husband, friend and family's backs.
I "scratched the itch" as one person told me to do and I don't feel bad or guilty at all. No I'm not a sociopath...realistically it's because I got away with it and I'm not in love with this person.
I'm realizing about myself that my issues at hand may be "maternal distress" my transition into motherhood has been more than difficult and everything is coming crashing down on me now. Desperate for something that is my own. There is no one else that knows this secret but him and I and it's grossly empowering.
I came back from my trip invigorated and ready to seize my life with my husband and my child but a few days went by and I crashed from my high realizing there's nothing else to look forward to.
I miss my guy, but in a way where I want him to miss me,like attention addiction.
Him and I talked about it was a really carefree "relationship" or lack of because it's not like I'm going to leave my husband and child and run away and live with him, our lives just aren't like that and I would never do that, so it prevents us from getting deep feelings, but we still talk about potential meet ups again.
I think I should still talk to a psychologist .
I took a ride along with the local police department and it was the most thrilling exciting thing I've done in a while and I think I'm ready to peruse it as a career change, I think having that goal to work towards and the thrill seeking in a constructive way might be a healthy outlet for all of this.
Anyone else feel this way? Like they just need some action that's their own?
I had a secret rendezvous with my guy behind my husband, friend and family's backs.
I "scratched the itch" as one person told me to do and I don't feel bad or guilty at all. No I'm not a sociopath...realistically it's because I got away with it and I'm not in love with this person.
I'm realizing about myself that my issues at hand may be "maternal distress" my transition into motherhood has been more than difficult and everything is coming crashing down on me now. Desperate for something that is my own. There is no one else that knows this secret but him and I and it's grossly empowering.
I came back from my trip invigorated and ready to seize my life with my husband and my child but a few days went by and I crashed from my high realizing there's nothing else to look forward to.
I miss my guy, but in a way where I want him to miss me,like attention addiction.
Him and I talked about it was a really carefree "relationship" or lack of because it's not like I'm going to leave my husband and child and run away and live with him, our lives just aren't like that and I would never do that, so it prevents us from getting deep feelings, but we still talk about potential meet ups again.
I think I should still talk to a psychologist .
I took a ride along with the local police department and it was the most thrilling exciting thing I've done in a while and I think I'm ready to peruse it as a career change, I think having that goal to work towards and the thrill seeking in a constructive way might be a healthy outlet for all of this.
Anyone else feel this way? Like they just need some action that's their own?
I have felt this way. Experienced this. Right down to desiring the high thrilling career. I got married, had kids and lost my identity. I wasn't known as me anymore. Not referred to by name. Only his wife, their mother. I got swallowed up and beat down by my husband's religious beliefs. And I was smothered. I wanted an escape. Just once or twice....
But as far as the affair goes I want to caution you.
I personally think it is difficult to maintain the void of emotions. I could be wrong. However, I wasn't able to maintain that. In fact every time we meet for about a year, I told myself..."you've got this. You are not going to fall in love w this man." Now 4 yrs into it...there isn't much hope. I very much love that man. More than I ever even knew possible. And I don't see any way to stop. And we are same as you guys... Not leaving our spouses for each other. Not a chance. Not going to happen. So we make do with what we have. Our motto "it is what it is" and this is our only option, no other choice. (I know there are those in this forum who won't agree w that and will advice on NC but I'm not looking for that)
I get that same adrenaline high when I use to see my x-om. I'm glad your searching for other ways to get your individualism back. Keep on that track and leave the affair go. It gets ugly when feelings Start to form.
Good luck and keep coming back cause there's some great experienced people here.
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