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Engagement Ending

torisalinas717
torisalinas717

It's been two months almost since my engagement ended. I'm depressed. Distraught. We barely have figured out the living situation. Reasoning is because of me and my dumb ass drinking. It lead to me blacking out and sending things to apparently two people. I still don't remember to this day what was said or how things were. There were a few months of emotional distance and hurt before the break up. This there was no physical integration, the messages I sent to others was just as hurtful in his eyes. And for that I can never forgive myself. It hurts and I'm saddened I hurt him. 

MemphisWH
MemphisWH
We all make mistakes, it hurts us as much as the ones that love us.
You con move on, be a better person and be a better version of yourself.
Focus on your health and well being.
Start writing in your daily journal.
Start reading the bible
Start praying daily
Start listening to yourself, your needs and soul.
Start healing your soul and spirit.
Reach out to others for help.
CloverMoon
CloverMoon
The same thing happened to me a year ago. My inlaws ruined my picnic. That night at the campfire I had only 1 lite beer, went to bed & felt great the next day. Guess I felt a little too great bc that evening we took my son, dil & granddaughter (who I hadn't seen in years) to a local bar/restaurant where I consumed enough beer to end up fuzzy & happy. Came home where my wonderful H got out the bourbon. I don't drink whiskey but when dil egged me on I had one, then another & another. H went to bed bc he had a doctors appt next day & had to get up early. My next memory was waking up in the downstairs bathroom 7 hours later & couldn't stand up. H had to carry me upstairs to bed at 7 am. The worst part is......I'm 60+ yrs old. I should know better.

#1 it's only been 2 months for you. I promise things will get better. I too don't remember what I said during my blackout & I don't want to be told. My son is the only one who knows & I've told him I don't want to know.....ever! I suggest you do the same. We can't change the past & trust me, no matter how much you try to explain you didn't mean what you said, they're going to believe that saying about drunks telling the truth. Which we both know is a crock. Drunks exaggerate. I suspect my tirade included regretting marrying my husband & on from there but as I said I'll never know & don't want to.

My suggestion to you is......stop drinking now, at least for 90 days. You won't believe the change that comes over you. During that time don't think about how you can fix the past.....you can't. I suspect you are young so you have an advantage over me. I'm thinking of how I don't have much time to create a good life for what's left of it. You have plenty of time. Time really does heal everything if you pick yourself up & make the changes you need to. There will be those who will doubt you but remember, you're doing this for YOU! Put the past where it belongs. You can do this. Hugs!