I believe that we often dream about unresolved issues or our true feelings on a subject.  Do your dreams reflect this statement?  Or do you just have some random dreams to share that have something to do with your cheating?  My dreams seem to not be in favor of my AP-- I had one months ago where my H and I came home to find my AP in my house and my H kicked my AP's ass.  While that was happening I didn't feel sorry for my AP at all, I was more concerned about acting like I had no idea what he was doing there in order to cover my own ass.  Last week I had another dream that I ran into my AP and he barely acknowledged me, like he wasn't interested since he couldn't get me like he wanted to and moved on.  But I wasn't hurt or sad, just mildly surprised but accepting, thinking, well, that happened and is over with.  This last dream planted the idea that if I imagine what happened was just a dream, it is easier to just let thoughts if him pass by...after all, my memories of him now appear as real (or foggy) as those dreams I had.  Maybe I can move on after all with this secret.  Just look forwards and not backward...it was all a dream...