Yes, chicken and broccoli can get monotonous! They are healthy foods, but certainly many other foods are also. We need variety. As you experienced, the plan backfired because you were so frustrated and bored. As for body image, we can't compare ourselves to others. It leads to depression and anger. Someone out there is always younger, prettier, and thinner! God made you as a unique person. He loves you for who you are.

I too got into bodybuilding and clean eating a few years ago. It was my life. But I still felt bad about myself alot. I didn't start dating until I was 24 because of how ugly I felt. At my smallest I was a size 8-10 and I am 6 feet tall. I felt great because I had lost over 65 pounds and learned to cook. I really enjoyed lifting weights and kickboxing. I noticed exercise helped my depression, and I felt empowered that I knew how to cook delicious meals healthier. I even became a chef for awhile. But then I dated a guy who didn't like big girls. He constantly made me feel bad about myself because he told me I needed a boob job, and I always caught him looking at other women, tiny childish looking women with fake tits. I felt like I could never be good enough for him or do anything right because I'm stuck in the wrong body. I felt like I was too lazy and stupid to make my self look good enough to pay attention to me instead of watching porn all the time. When he cheated on me with 3 other women, including a teenager, I wasn't surprised. I wouldn't want to touch me either.
My life was so devastated by my ex that I'm still not healed. I go to the gym occasionally but my heart just isn't in it anymore. I feel like if I wasn't good enough when I was in the best shape of my life, then why bother?
Now I have changed jobs and I work at a mostly sitting job. I have gained even more weight. I don't go tanning anymore because it started causing cysts. And I can't seem to get my hair to do any but be ugly. I look in the mirror and don't recognize myself. I see a monster. My current boyfriend seems to like thicker girls, but I don't see how he can stand to touch me. Again, I feel in a situation where I'm panicking that if I don't starve myself and run, I won't be able to keep my boyfriend. I hate feeling like I need to do this destructive behavior, even tho it's supposedly more healthy. Just like boob jobs are destructive but can get you ahead in life. I wish I could stop obsessing about my body and hair but I can't. I was a bartender for years and I learned that the way you look directly influences how people like you and treat you.
I found porn sites on my boyfriend's phone yesterday. It made me feel really bad. No wonder he doesn't pay attention to me. It's just so hard to eat healthy when your significant other eat junk all the time and alcoholic. And only hit gym twice a week when I have the car we share.
I've been thinking maybe a haircut and new makeup would cheer me up. I can't afford new clothes and everyone at work dresses so much nicer. I just know if I do cut my hair I will still hate it and wear my extensions. Idk what is wrong with me. I've just never been happy in my body.

I know there isn't some quick fix all and that it takes work, dedication, and a lifestyle change. I just wish I could find something positive to get me fired up again about being healthy. I miss when I was in college learning about dietetics. I have so many negative emotions tied to weight loss. I either think of my ex or panic about my health and then think of my dad dying in front of me from a massive heart attack due to being overweight and unhealthy.