I often wonder how it would have turned out if my bio dad would have loved my mom instead of raping her. Instead she married a drinking man and they had 9 children after mom had me. I was upset about all those children I had to take care of as the years went by. We didn't have much money, my step dad was in the Marines, and didn't make that much money. But all those children. I ran out on them when I was 17, They resented me for that. So did mom, I left her with all those kids to take care of. Dad would be overseas every 5 years and that was tough.

Anyway, mom was raped, I was conceived, and the boy didn't own up to it. End of story. My step adopted me when I was 6.

I'm sorry that you've had such a hard life. That must of been tough on you all. Some people we're much better without!

My step dad has turned out to be a great guy. he has been there to help me when ever I have needed him. He stood by mom the whole time she was sick until she died. And now he is supporting my sister. He has tried to make up for all the bad he did to us in our younger days. I am proud of him now.

that is very good to here .......and ..it is a credit to you ....that you have been able to see through everything .....and see ..what is real ...and apreaceat it .......after going through the pain you went through ......you have a good heart .......take care ...God bless .........

I have a lot of angizity ...about talking about my experanc. this was ...a terablr hard time in my life that ..brok me ....I have never been the same ..........I don't know how it will be taken here ......as I am ..on the other side of things ....and ...even after all this time it is still hard to talk about this .especualy to all of you .....who were given up for adoption .......because I gave up my little girle for adoption ....and it is not somthing I talk about ...with Maney people ......I was not alowed to tell anyone in my family ...because I was told I would runin there life ....I was sent away ...because ....it was looked dowen on ....being an unwed mother ...even thought I was only ..14 ...at the time ........and in love ..........my mother was ashamed of me ...but I was not ashamed ..of my baby and refused to be ....what I was and am ashamed of is that I let my self ..be ...bullied ..and talked into ..and ..told that I was just being shalhfish sorry can't spell that .....if I dident give her up so she could have a chance at life w her up ..........Ithe two parents that loved her .....and my parents did not and could not help me ...and sent me away so no one would know I was even pregant ........I loved every minit of being pregant ..I loved my baby .....and I love her today .....we are very close ...and she has given mne ..five grandchildren ....and she is so much like me ...even her adoptive parents can't get over it .....after ...it was over I would look in the mirror and I could only see half of me the right half .....it is hard to explain .....when we got to gether ..she told me that when she looked in the mirrior she could only see half of her ..the left half ....when we came together ..we were both hole .....and when she found me she found her birth father .....I am with him today .....that is enough for me right now .................take care ..God bless ....

I know that I would not be in the shape I am in now ..if I had not gone through .....that experance .....I might be depresed but I never would of broken like I did .....