I just need a little time ...and will get back to you on this .....

No problem each one of us deals with this in our own way. No pressure!

my daughter am me put our names in at the children's aid a weak apart .........I always new I would see her one day ...I was just ..terafied to meet her .....afraid she would hate me ......and I loved her so much but I was willing to take ...and thing she had to give me ...............the year befor I asked my mother to put her name in ..because I just could not go near that building ......the children's aid building ...I couldent even go past it ...so she did that for me ........when me and her father ..my h .went to meat her .we cried most of the way there ...and took a few minits to .........get under controll because I did not want to cry at her I dident think I had that right ......but when I saw her I just started crying hand ..we huged ..she cried ..to ..but not like me ..I apoligised ...for crying so much ....but she said it was ok .....they usualy want you to have sone visits there ..first ..but she wanted to come home with us right away ................so we introduced her to her brothers and sister .....she said she always wanted a sister ..she stayed for 4 days .........she fit in like she was never gone ........"............................I had bought her a heart with a cross in the midel ..on a chane ..and rote a little not just to let her know she was loved ....and saked that they give it to the adopting parents ...for when they told her she was adopted .............the children's aid never gave it to them .....I have been looking for one the same but I can't find one ..like it ....................I thought of her all the time ..it was like she wase torn from me ....I looked for her for that neck less I had given to her adopted parents ......but the children's aid told me she was ..way dowen south .....and ..her father was .in his last year to be a loyer ..that he was working for a loyer and her mother ...was in the medical feald so that we're well off ...much better capabual to look after her than me ..I found out when I met her it was all lies ......neather of her adopted parents were in eather of those fields ....and they dident have near the momy that they told me they had .................and she did go through some rough times ....but she did love her parents ....so I was great full they loved her ......and looked after her .....................................................for me it was like ..if some one just came and took your child and you never knew what happened to them .......so it was torcher ........it brok me .......I have never been the same ...................................................................

Thank you for sharing. I'm glad that you are able to get to know your daughter. I would of probably would of cried too. And probably will if I meet my family. All together I have 5 sisters now, which is amazing.

thankyou .....that is amasing .....has meating them ..showen you ..ware you get some of the way you do things like justures ..or some of your thinking ...or looks ..anything like that ....I hope that when you get to know the rest of the family that everything goes good ....sometimes at the beginning ...it can be bumpy ...but ..that can all be worked out .....if that happenes .....I will put you in my prayers ..that all goes well ....take care ..........o have to tell you I was nervise puting this dowen here or any ware ....I have never riten any of this dowen ..it has always been to painfull .....and I dident think anyone would understand ...just ..how ...hard it has been ...or that I even had the right to say it was hard on me .....but you have made it easer ...to talk about .....thank you ..............my daughter ..was not happy that we gave her up ...and wanted to know everything that hapened ...and me and my h her father ..were telling her one thing ..and my mother were telling her somthing diferant .....so we told her to talk to my father ....and he told her that for what ever reason my mother refused to tell the truth ..about all that happened ......once she new everything ......she was satisfied ........she thought that finding us together ..was .......like a farie tail ...we told her ..she was born out of love .......take care ..God bless

You have so much strength in you to share your story, thank you! I've had some issues lately that are in my journal. Hugs!