I have depression since about 2003. My problem started, about 1999. When I had my own house. In 1999 my Father came to see me in London, this is where I had my house. So on Friday he was coming to my house to see me. And after that he was going to Germany. So I was at work when he came to my house. So i had two lodgers staying in my house, to let him in. So when I got back to the house he had two hours talking to the lodgers. So then me and Father where talking, then it was time to take him to the airport. and off he went. When I got back to the house, one of the lodgers said to me your Father was crying and wasn't happy with me. And the other lodger said don't take an notice of him his only lieing. Then the other said in the back round he said to destroy his life. So that got me thinking so on Monday I rang my Father and said what did you say to them lodger, as they where annoying me now. My Father said I said noting to them. I said are you sure. The start of my nightmare years.