"just when the caterpillar thinks her world is over...she becomes a beautiful butterfly". Just remember sweetie, when you're at your lowest...FREEDOM from a toxic relationship is so worth the pain, the rollercoaster...all of it. It WILL Be worth it. You are amazingly strong and resilient and you deserve MUCH happiness!!!! Stay tough!
The countdown is on! Better days ahead for you, for sure. Make a list of all the good qualities you possess. Make another list of all the things you wish for. Make a dreams list, prioritize it, and start working toward making those dreams come true. You deserve it. Love ya.