I just needed a safe place to get my feelings out. None of my friends nor family liked my ex and we have been seperated 2 years in Jan so i don't really have anyone to talk to about the very deep sorrow and failure i feel everytime I go to the court to turn in more papers and the final court date is set for next Tuesday. I feel incredably happy because I have a wonderful partner now that loves my girls and me and is so many things I needed that my ex wasn't. I also feel a deep sorrow, and a feeling of failure and fear of ever being married again. He was once the love of my life, married at 19 and married for 10 years before we seperated. We have two amazing daughters together 7 and 2.5. He changed my life, he was my everything to the point of being unhealthy for a long time and he hurt me in so many unimaginable ways. I know this is the best choice. The right choice. And I thought I would be over this grieving process by now but I'm just not....sometimes it feels so fresh and raw, other times it feels so healed and over. It's just nice to get it all out. All these mixed emotions building in my heart.