I was in a contract as a submissive right after I turned 17. He was my best friend at the time. He was 35 and took great care of me after my mom kicked me out of my house. I loved being submissive and we had a very detailed and firm contract to adhere by. However in december of 2009 after having me over 2 years he did something unimaginable. He drugged my drink at a friends house. I woke up bleeding and bound to a wire rack. He said I was old enough for a new contract and forced me to sign one that was virtually limitless.i ended up in the hospital for 6 weeks with internal bleeding and a stab wound to my hand.  The problem is even though i am married and have 3 kids. Sex terrifies me. Orgasiming causes me pain. I dont know what to do anympre as I still have nightmares about him. The only reason I am comfortable with my husband is even though he isnt a dom he is very strong and takes charge. I need help but dont know where to get it.