I'm doing fine during the day, but at night the demons come out. I still maintain the suicidal thoughts right before I go to sleep. In fact, I can't really fall asleep without them anymore, which is sad.
Summer's here, so I'm two months out for school. After this year, I honestly needed the break, but now I'm so desperately lonely for people that I'm doing work planning for the year.
I need to get laid. Self-explanatory. But I can't go out and meet women because I don't know anyone to go out with. Nice conundrum.
I'm crushed by student loans, what else is new.
I'm alone most of my days. I hate it, I really do.
I'm really sorry for what you're going through. I didn't know other people had to fantasize about suicide or something similar to get to sleep. I'm so sorry that's what it takes for you (I'm also sorry to admit I'm a little relieved that other people have this.)
I wish I had some helpful advice, but being in a similar place and not coping very well, I don't think I'm really qualified. People keep telling me I'll feel better when the heat breaks and we can getter better sleep. It's not very consoling.
Is there any place you feel comfortable going by yourself where you might meet a new friend? Hobby, continuing education, activity? Best case you meet someone and hit it off right away, but even if it takes a few tries, it might work out really well?
Actually, I'm kind of relieved. I didn't know anyone else did that. It's been like that for a few years now. Still, as morbid as this sounds, I feel good knowing that I'm not the only one. Thanks.
I wish I had some helpful advice, but being in a similar place and not coping very well, I don't think I'm really qualified. People keep telling me I'll feel better when the heat breaks and we can getter better sleep. It's not very consoling.
Is there any place you feel comfortable going by yourself where you might meet a new friend? Hobby, continuing education, activity? Best case you meet someone and hit it off right away, but even if it takes a few tries, it might work out really well?