HAha! You are so right. This will probably be my first and only post :)

I wonder if everyone is too scared to post?

I wonder if others check it and then get weird with no responses. I do.

I hate being alone. I ache for someone to talk to, hangout with, especially at night, right before bed. It's absolutely the worst part of my day, right before sleeping. I've tried a lot of different things to get through to sleep where my thoughts drift. I'm currently trying rain and ocean sounds.

I miss the weight of a person sleeping next to me, the laughter of a friend or friends when we get blitzed. So much of what I was has just disappeared. I couldn't tell you how to make a friend if I tried. My neighbors across the street have a 1 year old daughter. I envy them.

I'm in this trap where I want to meet people, have friends, but I can't do it alone. It's insane.

Just about in tears reading your posts Cleric75. I love your first post, it's funny cos it's true. lol. That last one blew me away cos some stranger has just put my feelings, fears and desires into an online post. Thank god i'm not the only one like this! lol.

Thanks Cleric.

P.S we probably won't communicate again even though it's painfully obvious we should...that's just how we roll. lol

I hope not. But thank you for adding me and writing. I appreciate it. It's been the better part of my day.

lmao i was just thinking that. that's the problem with this personality disorder.