Hey!! I just dropped in to see how everyone was doing.

Why are you miserable, honey?

Sorry Allora....since hardly anyone is here I don't check as often as I should. Feel free to vent here girl. You're safe with us. I read your journal and I hate your OW too. What a whore!!! I'll keep checking in periodically to make sure I'm not missing any new posts.

Hang in there girl!

I don't check as often as I used to, but when I jump onto DS every few days I look here and feel a little sad to not see some activity!
I'm sorry that you are miserable...wanna talk a bit? I will be sure to check in regularly the next little bit for you!

Hey! I'm still here too love.

Still keeping on keeping on

Hey! I'm still here too love.

Still keeping on keeping on

Hey, Missy, I'm here. Not on here very often because it does tend to make my head dwell on stuff. But I do want to be available for you. :) I'll check in more often as well... at least in this forum.

Let us know what's going on with you! Hugs!

Thanks for everything y'all.

Trying not to dwell on the past isn't working. Trying to look forward to a future isn't, either. I'm frustrated and feel like a total failure. I've lost all hope that things will ever look better.

I have a dr. appt. scheduled on the 6th and I'll discuss with her whether or not she feels like meds might help. I don't really know what else to do at this point. I've given up on just about everything and don't remember the last time I experienced any semblance of joy.

This is no way to live.

Sounds like you are taking a good next step. What are are describing sounds very much like depression. It's hard to deal with the root cause (infidelity) if the symptoms are masking and standing in the way of progress.

I am also trying not to obsess and dwell. Stbx and OW are openly together and I am finding it extremely painful. My new IC and I wrote down all the little things that move me from what we call the "muck" into a better place. I pull out the paper and look at it often.

Don't be afraid of meds. At one point in my life, meds saved me.

Praying for you you Allora! (((hugs)))

Update: Dr. recommended exercise in lieu of meds.

Not helping. Anything. At all. If anything, I'm more miserable than I was in May. Yay?

Thinking a real pdoc may be a better answer, but it always takes a discouragingly long time to get in to be seen. Still better to try now than before winter comes (along with all the not-so-fun anniversaries.)

I agree...don't give up! You know your body and your mind and emotions. Hang in there!

I agree...don't give up! You know your body and your mind and emotions. Hang in there!

Hey, I got immediate help with meds at the urgent care for a month until I was able to see a primary care doc. Need to work around it, you know? Keep us updated!