So it has been over 10 years since my ex got custody of the kids they have graduated high school (i was denied celebrating that mile stone), are going to college and since then sometimes it seems as though things are getting better and then the damage to the relationship due to the alienation rears its ugly head. my relationship is not even close to where it should be or where i would like it and all i hear from people is how i need to let go of the past and forgive my ex. Yet, still I deal with the damage everyday, I watch as my children suffer in pain for what he has done and still I hurt. I feel like I have no family and there are days I regret ever having children because the pain is so bad. the only thing i ever wanted in my life and I cant have it. I work 2 jobs to be in debt and basically lost everyone who ever mattered. And I am so sick of hearing people tell me to forgive and let it go, that I need to just be grateful for the crumbs I'm given or my personal favorite trust God. as though I haven't prayed to him just for him to ignore me all these years. I think sometimes that maybe I should just end it all so this pain will stop. I don't understand how people think you can forgive someone for murdering your relationship with your child when the act hasn't ended. someone please explain to me how you move on and learn to be happy when the things that made you happy are gone? how do you find joy in anything when you have known the joy of being a mother?
I'm a week clean today. It's very tough but honestly feels like an acomplishment.
hello , I am a mother of a 28 year old son who is a heroin addict. He hit his bottom last month. He is now in a rehab in Michigan, far, far away from California where we live and where his drug addicted friends are . He did so well the first few weeks , gained 10 lbs and was so happy being sober . However the last week he has been calling and saying he needs a break . He wants a one week break...