When they ask ..
what is Still's Disease?

My reply ..
should be, you know the cells in your body that fight off infection
and all
the bad stuff like colds and the flu? Well, usually after all the
infection is gone, these fighter cells just kind of fade into the
background until the next infection comes along.

Now that I have Stills, these fighter cells have become mutants. These
mutant fighting cells love to fight and kill off stuff so much that
now
they do it all the time.

Now when all the infection is gone, they keep right on killing. If
there
are no bad cells left to kill, then they begin to destroy the good
cells
in my body like the good tissue in my heart, my lungs, my muscles, my
joints, my skin,and my kidneys.

That is why sometimes I will have a rash on my neck and face .. it is
the mutant
fighting cells eating up my good skin cells and it causes a rash.

That is why when I say I am tired, and taking so many naps helps make
me deal better. It
is because those same mutant cells are messing up my muscles and
making
me extremely weak.

When I say "not today", it is not because I don't want to do something
with you .. it is because I cant.
It is not because I don't love you .. because I do.

It is because I don't have a choice in the matter .. no matter how
much
I want to do something, sometimes I just cant because on that day ..
the
Still's cells are wreaking havoc in my body.

Some days I will be able to do things, because even mutant cells have
to
rest some time .. the doctors call it remission. But the good days
wont
be as many as the bad days when I cant do anything ugh! I have
learned
to really enjoy the good days though.

When they ask ..
will Still's Disease make you die?

I should tell them .. probably .. but I could also walk out there and
get hit by
a bus too. We all die someday right .. so why worry about when it is
going to
happen. Let's just enjoy life while we are all here and worry about
death later. But there are days the pain is so bad that, I feel its
not coming soon enough
but I know that is just silly, selfish thinking so I fight it.

The main point being .. be truthful with the kids .. the
husband/wife .. the
family.. or the people you care about.

No one likes being lied to .. and lying only causes more problems.

Be truthful .. relate the facts about Still's Disease .. and enjoy
life while you can.

Plus my next life if feel is going to be so much better.
As Revelation 21:3-4 States:
"Look the tent of God is with mankind and he will reside with them
and they will be his peoples and God himself will be with them and he
will wipe out ever tear from there eyes and death will be no more
neither will mourning nor outcry nor pain be anymore The former
things will have passed away."
I have that hope to help me though this system
with Gods's help I can endure this.

My husband always says "Smile this is your Life!"

Heather Ann Fultz