I know exactly how you feel. I've been married to my husband for 4 years and ironically enough our 5th wedding aniversary is in 19 days. I don't even feel like celebrating. WHAT DO I HAVE TO CELEBRATE! Yeah sure things get better and the person I fell in love with comes out, I let down my guard and BAM! just like that it changes. I'm tired of dealing with this rollercoaster of a relationship. I love my husband more than words can express, but the man I married ceases to exist. I don't want my children to grow up without their father, but at the same time I can't keep subjecting them to this kind of lifestyle. I'm so frustrated. I hope he gets help. I even told him that I would go with him. So far I haven't gotten a response from him. I hope he's really thinking about what I said.

wow i so know what your going through.......i moved out from my boyfriend of 5yrs and then he begged me to take him back! BUT I DIDNT! he is now in prison for his drug abuse....he tried to kill himself in our house and i called the police. he had passed out from being up for 8 days before that THANK GOD!! i go see him and he claims hes a new man and yes i sooo do believe him. only time will tell when he gets released! good luck

Addiction is a funny thing. For the addict and for the ones with the addicts. Rollercoaster of emotions and from day to day it changes even after they "sober up" It is hard because the longer you spend with them the harder it is to trust and really be able to rely on them. They gat clean and they are great and then you are stuck there with this uneasy feeling, are they using, are they lying to me. And you are afraid that they are going to jump off the deep end if you say anthing to them. I'm told that eventually it gets easier. Either they wise up or you do. Find happiness in yourself and you will find things easier. Either you realize that it will or won't work.

I know how you feel. My husband and I have a 4 month old son, and since we have been together it's been back and forth. Once we found out I was pregnant, things were great for awhile. But every once in a while, there is a relapse, and every time it gets harder to handle. But after this last time, I told him I just couldn't take it if it happened again. I love him so much, with all my heart. But my son comes first, and I know I don't want him to grow up knowing all this. I know it's hard, but you shouldn't feel bad about doing what's best for you and your children.

I too am in the same situation. In the 5 yrs ive been with my husband hes detoxed and failed 9 times, and i wonder when is it ever gonna end? The hurt and pain is unbearable, and i know ill never trust him again. I have no sense of security and i cant rely on him. We have 3 children and i just cant face being without him, so im giving him 1 last chance, and im gonna mean it this time! You definately have to think about yourself and the children.

Ive been married over 16 years. my husband has been actively using for the past 4 to 5 years..maybe longer.
He never admitted to having a problem, will not go for help..still lies about it hides it, etc.....it hasnt gotten worse though...it goes up and down , up and down.....he was snorting oxy about 3-4 yrs. ago, and that was worse. Then he got on suboxone, is still one it for 3 years now!!! BUt he does coke. So he switched addictions, but the oxy was worse then the coke...he needed that oxy everyday, several times a day...the coke he can stop for a few weeks, use one or tow times a week, but this week is was more like 4 or 5 i think. The only way i can tell is that he cant go to sleep at night and he kind of isolates himself. He goes to work, has a great job, makes good money, but on weekends has no energy for his family. I have 2 kids ages 14 and one almost 12. I know i cant live forever like this. lately ive been trying to avoid thinking about it because it makes me so sad. I have no family around here to help me...i am always just sitting home with nothing to do. i have very few friends. His family is in denial , and dont want to knnow from nothing. I am so miserable that this is my life and i dont know how to change it. I feel stuck. Naranon meetings can only help to a point....i need a good job, i need friends that live by me that i can socialize with, and not just those from naranon, i need family to spend time with....so i dont feel so alone.

I have been dealing with my boyfriends heroin addiction for 2yrs now. We have been together for 7yrs and I it is the hardest thing I have ever faced. We were supposed to get married before I found out about his addiction. I can not compete with a needle.

My boyfriend has been in and out of prison for drugs. Just today he has diappeared again. I don't know what to do, think or even feel towards him or the situation. I am an emotinal wreck today. I love him so very much and I don''t know what to do. My family only knos basic things regarding this issue and I have hidden it all from them. I feelso alone and weak right now. I am so angry and want to know why?????