ALL MOODY BLUES Community Group
This group is for all people, no matter what disease, disorder, or life issue that causes you moody times and needs a little support or wants to give support. Be yourself, have fun meeting new people that care and understand you. RULES- show respect, no extra drama, no bashing, keep personal info confidential , and don't give advice [ if asked ok] . problems or...
I am a recovering alcoholic and a couple of months ago I blew 4 years of sobriety. Well I've done it again. I went to the doctor looking for a medication that would relieve my shaking, I am bipolar and and on a medication called Lithium when is know to cause trembling. It was getting so bad for me that I was willing to do just about anything, I couldn't even button my pants let alone use a mouse and trying to type was just a nightmare, I could do it but barely and very slowly like now.
I wen't to the Doctor and everything seemed to go fine , I got the prescription, well actually it was sent in by the doctor. We live in the modern age. When I got home the first thing I did was to take it and in about two hour all my symptoms seemed to go away, I was so happy but the medication had some side effects I didn't know about I should have researched it before I took it but I didn't who would have thought to do that, although my sponsor did shortly after I took it. the name of the drug is PRIMIDONE. Anyway it gave me quite a buzz and made me like headed and the sensation was a lot like being drunk, so I started to fixate on drinking, late that evening I wen to the store and got some beer and began drinking again.
I wen't to the Doctor and everything seemed to go fine , I got the prescription, well actually it was sent in by the doctor. We live in the modern age. When I got home the first thing I did was to take it and in about two hour all my symptoms seemed to go away, I was so happy but the medication had some side effects I didn't know about I should have researched it before I took it but I didn't who would have thought to do that, although my sponsor did shortly after I took it. the name of the drug is PRIMIDONE. Anyway it gave me quite a buzz and made me like headed and the sensation was a lot like being drunk, so I started to fixate on drinking, late that evening I wen to the store and got some beer and began drinking again.
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grill tonight with charcoal.....turned out good but had some stuff that I had to feed to Belle and Happy because it was grissley. it tasted pretty good and was a perfect mid rare....
Okay, you slipped. Now stop drinking. You can do it, you did for how many years??? Side effects will hopefully be short lived and stop soon, in the meantime keep your sponsor's number handy and go to meetings!!! I don't need to tell you how to work your program. You have lived it and done so well. Please remember it is ONE DAY AT A TIME, ONE DAY AT A TIME, ONE HOUR AT A TIME. Whatever it takes. Good luck and God bless you.
I am saddened to hear of your relapse. The medication does explain what triggered it, however you don't want to use that as an excuse to continue down this path you know in your heart is not for you. You and only you know of your struggles, of your reasons and wants to stop drinking in the first place. I urge you to continue contact with your sponser and understand a relapse can sometimes be an excuse people use to continue on a road they don't want to be on. Again, I commend you for your stopping in the first place those many years ago... please go back to that place and remember a relapse isn't an "in for a penny, in for a pound" excuse you want to take. Many hugs to you dearest friend... and remember, I'm here for you if you ever need to talk or release any frustrations, uncertainties, thoughts and feelings regarding making your choice to stop once again. I'm not an official sponser, but I offer you my support, and a couple of listening ears.
Hoping to hear your latest and hoping your choice was to put down any drink and get back to figuring out your way forward.
Many good luck hugs to you.
i can understand your predicament, i, too, suffer from addiction. several actually. My main one is Self Harm. it has me by the throat and its grasp is squeezing tightly, a lil each time i dont cut. i'm so proud of you for reaching 4 years...that is so awesome; i envy your sense of control and abstinence for such a long time. i admire you for that.i feel there is hope for you..you've done it once, you can and will do it again if you so desire...even tho we dont share the same addiction im still understanding of what you are going through, relapse wise...so if you'd like to chat please feel free to reach out to me ok because i do care and respect you for who you are
It is an eternal battle and the more you learn and understand from it, the stronger you will be to fight it.
Cheering for you ((HUGS))