ALL MOODY BLUES Community Group
This group is for all people, no matter what disease, disorder, or life issue that causes you moody times and needs a little support or wants to give support. Be yourself, have fun meeting new people that care and understand you. RULES- show respect, no extra drama, no bashing, keep personal info confidential , and don't give advice [ if asked ok] . problems or...
It's all coming back. The downward spiral, flashbacks, self-hate, self-harm...
I'm dragging the people I love down too... Skillfully assisting them to achieve the same level of distress that I'm feeling.
And once again I'm performing my party trick of painting on the mask and hiding the depths that I'm sinking too. My husband knows it isn't good, but I'm holding up what barriers I can to hide the worst of it... But I think he suspects which is fucking him over mentally too.
My two best friends are dealing with some seriously heavy shit in their own lives and I refuse to add to their worries, but this leaves me with nowhere to turn. I feel so alone. It's been a long time since I've felt this isolated and helpless.
Even my counselor is on 2 weeks bereavement leave.
I'm dragging the people I love down too... Skillfully assisting them to achieve the same level of distress that I'm feeling.
And once again I'm performing my party trick of painting on the mask and hiding the depths that I'm sinking too. My husband knows it isn't good, but I'm holding up what barriers I can to hide the worst of it... But I think he suspects which is fucking him over mentally too.
My two best friends are dealing with some seriously heavy shit in their own lives and I refuse to add to their worries, but this leaves me with nowhere to turn. I feel so alone. It's been a long time since I've felt this isolated and helpless.
Even my counselor is on 2 weeks bereavement leave.
I hope you are doing better today. ((hugs))
Thank you so much for replying. It's the isolation that's the worst at the moment.