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Alone?

SeanPain
SeanPain
Ok so the more i think about the people in my life the more i realize that nobody ever mentions mentions how down or depressed i am - i just dont know if they dont care one way or the other or if they just dont see what im fighting with everyday. People always look at me like they dont wanna say anything about anything that i say or do because they say im too big and scary lookin but im not even like that i mean i can be like that and very defensive or offensive depending on the situation but im not anything like what they portray me as. Im not gonna say that i look like a nice person but i try to be a good person although its hard because of the depression and frustration about/with life that i go through.

Sorry for rambling but i just dont think anyone in my life REALLY cares and feels like this more and more everyday and i dont think its just the depression telling me this. Me and my wife hardly even speak as all i can think about is what happened between us 1-1/2 years into our marriage and the fact that she talks about our marriage like its the perfect example of what marriage should be when everyone around us knows and seen what happened for thereselves. I just dont know.......about anything nowadays, I dont see a reason behind my life i dont see a pleasant end to all of this i dont see a justifiable reason for everything i have gone through and am still dealing with.I want to leave so bad but i know that if i did then it wouldnt just be bad for me but for her as well as we both wouldnt last very long on our own

Sorry for being such a downer guys but this is my only way to spit out what i feel from day to day besides my journal.
deleted_user
deleted_user
YOU ARE NOT ALONE, you may feel like tat but that is just the depression talking, you may be big but i aint scared to tell you that you are depressed and need to get help. even if i saw you in the street i would tell you. it dont matter how big a persons body is it is their heart and mind that matters, if they cant see you are depressd then mabey you should pull one that you trust to the side and tell them. mabey you dont show it on the outside like your wife shows things are great you show greatness too. sometimes we have to tell it to others, this is a great place to start but you need therapy and counceling to get it out. you may be a big persn but you have emotions like others who arent. just let it out. hel alot of pro wrestlers (BTW I LOVE )have emotioonal problems and go to therapy but just dont tell about it. I KNOW OF ONE I WONT NAME
he is on here toooo
lighten up on yourself and ask for help or like i said tell a good friend
you arent the only one and you arent alone hun
your friend BABE
kmhll447
kmhll447
Sean, do you have someone you can just talk to? Someone who will listen without judging? If people don't know you are hurting they can't help. I know a little of what you are going through. Holding the pain inside doesn't help, it feeds the depression. It could be that your wife wants to present a happy face to the world as she sees it because she doesn't know what to do to help you. Babegator is right, counseling is a good idea, it will help point to the root of the problem. It won't change overnight, but you will notice a difference in yourself and attitude toward life. You are not alone.
Karen
Rue24
Rue24
Sean you are NOT ALONE friend. All of your MOODY BLUES friends are here for you. We care about you.
Christopher22
Christopher22
I don't know about anyone else but being very depressed makes me feel distant from everyone, I could be in a room full of ppl that love me to death and I would still feel alone. I Know that I sometimes make the mistake of thinking that ppl don't care because I feel distant. Sometimes I have unfair expectations of friends and family, I think they should be doing something but then I realize they really don't know what's going on with me because no one who doesn't have the same issues really can't. I'm not trying to say that, this is happening to you these are just observations that I've made over the years in dealing with my depression.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Don't ever apologize for venting . Venting is a good way to release pent up fustrations. Depression I have dealt with most of my life and it sucks.As far as not seeing a reason for your life . Hang in there b/c the alternative suicide is very permenant.Tries twice. Hang in there and if you ever need a friend to listen or talk message me.
SeanPain
SeanPain
Thx guys,Everyone thats currently in my life knows about my therapy visits,my major depression,my wacked out moments from frustration and the depression causing my temper to flare but they just stay quiet and dont even ask how im feeling or if i wanna talk or anything, Honestly i think i either need to start over or.......just give up because i cant stand being this alone. The only time my friends call and i use that term very lightly its only when they need something and then they dissapear and i just dont wanna deal with it anymore.

Thx for all the comments guys.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Sorry I havent been around much. But seems fellow Moodys are doing what they do best and supporting up a storm :) Glad to see it U know Im here for ya Sean , if you ever need to vent more , please send me a message !!!!!
deleted_user
deleted_user
i know how you feel. I'm going thru a very difficult time with my wife because of something she did. I dont know your situation but I think I can relate. It sounds similar. I dont have any advice because I'm seeking it myself. I'm kinda new to moody blues but if you want to talk more I'd like to talk with someone in a similar situation. I'll tell you my story if you want.