I'm new. I don't know if this is an active board or not. My brother is an addict. He was clean for at least 10 years and recently went on a bender, lost his fiance, and is now homeless. I know he's using again. One of my childhood friends just OD'd 2 days ago and now all I no longer have the thought of will it happen to my brother, but now it's this thought of when. I know that I cannot force him to get clean and neither can my other family.

He cut ties with me when he started using again. He was what my husband called "the good brother" when he was clean and sober. He was the one that called to say hi and called on birthdays. He called to ask about my boys. I miss him and right now I'm angry with him that he is using again. I don't even know if this is the right place to say this, but I don't know where else to go.