Tues night â¦he was went out drinking till 1230â¦


no big deal


Thurs I worked that night till 11 p.m. â¦.. and he drank in the garage with some friends.. not a biggieâ¦


and Friday night me and russ went to the horse races and to valleyfair.. Which was funâ¦.


Ok⦠after we left the parade Sat⦠I can always tell.. by the mood Russ gets inâ¦. I can just see a separate side of russ come outâ¦

we went home, and he started moaning that he didnât want to stay home.. he wanted to go somewhere drinking rightâ¦.

Well we had the kidsâ¦


So he went fishing with Jaden for a couple hours⦠well I knew he was there drinking with her.. so I called him and told him to get home⦠So he came home all pissy⦠in that mood, where I knew something was gonna happenâ¦


Soooo⦠he sat in the garage and drank.. the girls played outside.. and I was in and out of the house doing stuff cause I knewâ¦.. He was gonna try to take off.. â¦

Sooo then .. he wanted to leave and take jaden over to a house party round 8 pm and I was like Russ⦠no.. u arenât taking her anywhere its 8 pm she is tired and u have been drinking..(he was wasted) â¦â¦


So he was bitching and moaning that it was the 4th of July and poor me.. he has to stay home⦠everyone else gets to party.. and he has to sit in the garage by himselfâ¦


So I was like.. do u want to take the kids to the fireworks.. he was like nope u can⦠so I was like ok forget it..



Sooo finally around 845 I went out to the garage and sat and had a beer⦠did fireworks⦠round 945â¦. Around 1015.. I was like come on lets go in and put the girls to bedâ¦


He was like go ahead I am gonna sit out here and relax and have another beer.. which I KNEW he would leave as soon as I went into the house..


I didnât want him drinking and driving on the 4th of Julyâ¦


Soo I took his keys and phone away.. and we put the girls to bed.. and I was like Russ stay in the house.. he was like noâ¦. pushed me out of his way to get outside.. to where yes I do have bruises againâ¦


Soooooâ¦â¦â¦.. I went outside and sat on the patioâ¦


cause he went into his garage and locked the door.. so I couldnât get inâ¦


I wasnât gonna go in the house till he went in cause I knew he had another key to his truck somewhere.. and he was WASTEDâ¦.



So like evry 5 min or so.. he would open the door to see if I was still thereâ¦.


Emotionally abuse meâ¦â¦calling me names.. telling me I needed help.. the same old shit and then he would go back in to the garage and lock it⦠trying to get me to go into the hosue..


So I just sat on the patio and had a beer.. and texted a couple peopleâ¦. THIS went on for one hour in a half⦠it was like 1145 thenâ¦


I was sitting by the house⦠he saw me⦠pretended he was peeing⦠and got into his truck started it and leftâ¦.


Sooo â¦. I just put my head down and went into the house⦠and watched tv⦠till 330 am⦠I waitedâ¦

Finally fell asleep⦠around 4 am (BY the way I HAD his keysâ¦. Which had the house key on it.. .so I knew he would have to wake me somehow to get in)


Woke up at 730⦠No Russâ¦


930 amâ¦. No Russ..


soooo I checked his phone⦠And one of his friends was on the voicemail âsomething about⦠heard ur truck in the slough?(sp) ditch, call meâ


SOOOOOOO Then I started freaking the fuck outâ¦â¦â¦â¦. Text like 3 of his friends.. no one would text or call me back Sooo finally gave in and texted his friend to please give me a callâ¦that I didnât know where russ was ⦠or if he was ok or even aliveâ¦


His friend finally called me⦠and saidâ¦â¦â¦â¦â¦..

I didnât talk to him⦠Missy
That Someone had called him and told him

That last night after Russ left our house he went to a house party.... and then left there and then.. he decided to drive out to the Lake where so more people were partying... ⦠Went in the ditch /sloughâ¦. Whatever⦠buried his truckâ¦in the ditch/swamp/mud walked to some house.. where he knew some of his friends were.. they tried to pull him out and couldnât it was to buried⦠so they dropped him off at a resort⦠(so this was round 4 am or later) And that at 930 a,m, his truck was still in this sloughâ¦.
and his friend said thatâs all he knew⦠he didnât know where russ was ⦠didnât talk to him,.,..


And asked me if I wanted him to go and try to find himâ¦

And I was like no..
So I am bawlingâ¦




SOOOO I called his mom and told her that she needed to get her ass here⦠cause I wanted him out and goneâ¦


Russ finally walked in the door round 130 p.m.⦠was a total fuck to me.. saying it was my fault.. he left⦠blah blah â¦


his mom and dad walked in the door..

I told him to packed and get out.. or I would call the cops..


He packed a bag⦠and left.. all mad at me still..


I wanted to scream at his parentsâ¦. His mom and dad didnât say hardly a shitting word to him.. they just stood there.. I was like really U GUYS STEP up to the plate and yell at UR son⦠BE PARENTS⦠Let him KNOW that what he did isnât rightâ¦. That he could of killed someone⦠or himself⦠And then his mom and dad left..


Soooo⦠I took his house key


Me and the girls went to the pool⦠and at 415⦠I was going home saw he was thereâ¦


Waitin outside ....

So I told him again to leave or I was calling the cops which then upset the kidsâ¦â¦..


So I took off with the girls and went to DQ ⦠and told him I wasnât coming home till he was goneâ¦.. He kept texting me back and forthâ¦


When I got home from DQ at 620 he was outside waiting.. cause he didnât have any keys to get inâ¦


And I was like u can take the girls to the pool I need time alone.. Went in the house and layed on my bed and cried..and causeâ¦. I got like 3 hours of sleep the night beforeâ¦.. I fell asleep ⦠at 900 I woke up and he was sleeping on the couchâ¦


So I went back into the bedroom and was on the comp and watching tv till 200⦠and when I woke up he was gone..


So monday night he came in the room and I got the whole..


I am quitting drinking speech last night.. the whole I cant handle it, and I donât listen and do stupid things when I drink speech⦠To which I couldnât even talk to him Of course he told me all of this while the girls were still awake ⦠so we couldnât really get into itâ¦


And I came out of the bedroom to put the girls to bed at 815⦠and him and chaise were sleeping on the couch.. go figureâ¦


soo I wrote a letter Monday nightâ¦


telling him I didnât believe him, and why should I give him another chance⦠why should I trust that this time.. it will change⦠And he had a note Tues morning.. that he doesnât want to lose us.. that what he did was stupid and dumb .. and that he loves us and itâs the alcoholâ¦..thats doing this to himâ¦


And last nightâ¦.

Was the same ole shitâ¦

I told him ⦠I donât think I wanna be with him anymore⦠and he got all mad at me.. and he came up to me and stated to me that it was my fault, because I took his keys and cell phone away from him and made him madâ¦â¦



Everyone in his family is to scared to say anything to him , cause they donât want him mad at themâ¦


I just .. cant do all of this shit again⦠I really just donât have the strengthâ¦.


I donât think he is getting it.. I donât think the whole thing is getting in his brainâ¦


Anyways⦠So thereâ¦. Thatâs my whole storyâ¦.


Plus last night.. he told me.. he wants to file for bankruptcyâ¦..


I seriously do not know what to anymore