Hi everyone. I grew up with an alcholic father, who was extremely physically abusive to my mother. In turn my mother became depressed, and became emotionally, mentally and spiritually abusive to me. I've also dealt with depression from a young age, and it's just within the past year i've been able to overcome it. However, lately i've noticed that i am just like my mom in so many ways that it makes me cringe. I never wanted to end up so miserable with life. I thought it was my depression, but maybe it's also just a learned behavior. So now that i've noticed this, i have been trying my best to keep positive and not to be pessimistic. I feel like i could and should be enjoying my life more than i curently am, but my mom's opinions are still affecting my day to day life. I don't know where to draw the line as to what I feel and think, and what SHE feels and thinks. She still has too much power over the way i feel, and i'm struggling to let go. These patterns are soo hard to break. Can anyone relate to this??
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