I’m in my mid thirties. I’ve know since my my early 20’s that my mom has bpd. I’ve lived out of state for the past ten years, and it’s hard enough dealing with her from that far away. Because of life circumstances i won’t get into here, I’ve had to move back and I’m staying in her small apartment with her while I’m looking for a job. I have no where to lose to stay or at we I would. I spend all day out at a cafe applying for jobs. I ran out of things to do so I’m in my car in a parking lot just sitting here. 

I don’t kike to go back until it’s time for bed because she either is mad at me for something ridiculous already (like right now) or else interacting with her carries a super high risk of her getting mad at me for something. When she’s mad at me, she mopes and pouts around the house so I’ll feel bad, but won’t address it, and I can’t take that kind of negativity right now.

BUT also if I’m never there she might get mad at me for that. I’m not looking for advice. There is no advice to be given. I’m just trying to get of this situation as soon as I can. Just looking for people who relate to relate guess.