Adult ADHD Community Group
ADHD adult challenges and the conditions that occur with ADHD. A place for hope, education, inspiration, success and our support of one another as we move through life with Adult ADHD.
June 16th I was finally diagnosed with ADHD and put on Adderal. Only had the afternoon dose upped once. Have been on Sertraline (ZolofT) since a few months before that. Recently another pill has been added to 100 mil of Sertraline because the Dr. doesn't want me on a higher dose since at my last visit I told her it wasn't working.
Well since diagnosis, I have had a boat load of crud happen in my life, and I do not show emotions well, since I have PTSD due to child abuse. That has all changed. At work I was the loud, funny one. Since diagnosis I feel inferior, immature, and a couple of my "friends" only talk to me when they are teasing me. I stay quiet during meetings. When I send emails of questions I end them with, "Don't say this out loud." I am #1 in my company and my boss even tells me I put too much pressure on myself.
Hubby and I fight constantly. I cry A LOT. I am in a fould mood when I come home. It isn't helping I do not get help from them unless I ASK first, especially hubby, my FOURTH kid. I used to ride my bike 24 miles every morning at 5 AM before work. I have not ridden my bike in over a month. I have not had suicidal thoughts but I have thought about going far away and never coming back, about not waking up till all the shi* is over, also if everyone would be better off if I just enter myself into a psych ward and not coming out, etc.
These are abnormal feelings for me and I really need advice. What is going on with me? Severe depression? Severe anxiety? This is not fun!!! It's kind of scary for me!
I used to be a very productive and athletic person and after my baby was born it seemed like I lost myself. My medication does not seem to work as well and it's an everyday struggle.
If I'm correct and you're a lot like myself, you probably feel like no one understands. You can explain how you're feeling and it never seems to help because there is no empathy. We should chat more and stay in touch. I feel like having someone on "your side" that is going through similar struggles you can motivate eachother.
Journaling has really helped me. It's hard to find the time, but when you're feeling down and on edge start writing as you're writing you will be able to sort out your feelings rather than them building in your mind. I'm creating a personal blog/site for this purpose. One I get it up and running I'll let you know.
Just remember, you are a mother and a wife, but you're also an individual. Take time to stop and think about your strong points and all that you do. It's easier to be strong for others but a lot more difficult to focus on yourself when you feel overwhelmed with your responsibilities. Email me if you'd like befreetalkitout@gmail.com