Adult ADHD Community Group
ADHD adult challenges and the conditions that occur with ADHD. A place for hope, education, inspiration, success and our support of one another as we move through life with Adult ADHD.
At 43 I was finally diagnosed 3 1/2 wks ago. I was finally validated! I went through brutal side effects from the medicine but it was worth it because it is helping now.
This past week starting Tuesday I started hating ADHD. ( I work in phone sales.) I am a mover and need to be moving at all times, wether it be rocking like I am listening to music, waving my fingers, or swiveling my chair. Well with people moving their desks around, I am finding out even grown women can be "clicky" just like in high school, which was a nightmare for me then. The crushing moment for me came this evening when I figured out my metrics for the week. I tried SO HARD to focus on my scripts and read slowly and speak clearly. I worked SO HARD to make a lot of confirms I I am very good at making them.) I tried SO HARD to stay in my seat and not get up a thousand times, and didn't get up to use the restroom unless I tought I would pee right in my chair. I WAS SO PROUD OF MY SELF FOR WORKING SO HARD! Then I figured out my metrics. Wow. I'm not a crier, but I just sat in my car and cried. I was trying so hard to stay still and focus, that by the end of my shift I was exhausted and fried By the time I get home, my husband gets the "grouchy and tired" me. I was soooo disapointed.
I can't catch on to things like my co workers do. I try not to fidget but I know I NEED to in order to focus. I know people snicker and think of me as weird. Since my diagnosis I have become so self consious and I have been saying "I'm sorry" an awful lot. Does anyone have any advice for me? Is this normal? OMG I was crushed.
Example, I work in the medical field. I deal with referrals. We have a lot of different policies and ways of dealing with things. My desk is full of sticky notes. I write down little notes to myself to remind me of certain things I would normally overlook. As time went on, when I didn't look at a note anymore I would write it in a small notebook and keep it at my desk for reference and peace of mind. Eventually you will have old and new info and will be even more resourceful than others.
It's good to be emotional at times. Let your frustrations out through journaling. It will allow you to vent. But at the end of every journal start writing about your achievements even the smallest ones. You will see your progress overtime.