OMG! I can't believe we were so close. We went to Southern California and were there for the birth (actually a few days before). We named him (his legal name is the first and middle names we chose), held him, loved him, fed him, changed him, he was even released to us from the hospital. We drove 4.5 hours (3 hours until we reached my mom's house) and then we got the call, our worst adoption fears came true. We had to turn around and give our sweet baby boy back to his birth mother. Everyone was shocked, the agency, the social worker, the attorney. We left the hospital and she said she was 100% sure that this was what she wanted. Now we are empty arms again and broken hearts. I don't understand our path to becoming parents of live healthy baby(ies). The phone calls to tell everyone, the family, our friends, our employers.... Wow nothing to say, nothing to do, over $7000 spent on an attorney and social worker fees just for this adoption and that isn't what we paid for everything before we were matched, nor the lack of pay we have because our state does not pay leave for adoptive parents, or the cost of travel/hotel/etc. I don't think she realizes she has turned our lives upside down and we have NO baby. Please pray for us we are looking for comfort, peace and our forever baby.