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I Rescently had a Pretty Big Blow up with someone that was in recovery before me, I have always tried to be Friendly "Maybe to much" I have Never Met this Person IN Person because they live in the S.West & I in the N.East but this Just has me so Rattled its Unreal!! I haven't engaged with this Person for about 2wks due to my Crazy life but this is how it All Started... I Requested Prayers for My Aunt on Social Media Yesterday that was Having Cancer Surgery (Which thank God went well) and it Ended with this Person telling Me in a PM, that I'm Always Asking for Prayers for Others, but I Don't Think about THEIR (This one Persons) NEEDS? And Maybe They Should Just reavueate Who their Friends are since i'm Always Asking & Never Giving to them... To which was followed by "JUST Sayin!" I Read it Many times, because I Thought I Missed Something... So Here is My Rant :/
Do ya Ever Just Get Tired of Other Peoples Drama? I have had a Ruff last Week, Like Many Im Sure, but it Continues to Keep Coming... And Tho I'm Not Trying to Control it, or Even Deal with it Really because Non of it is my Issue, they just Keep Throwing the Punches! They Keep Filling the Plate to Belittle me, Make me feel Less then I am, or Miss Preceive for thier Own personal satisfactions (I Guess) and then tell me not to take it personal when they brought it to me to begin with... Well I'm Def getting my Feet wet in the practicing of Principals above Personalitys part for sure...
I Don't Ever intentionally go out to hurt Someone, Has it Happened? Absolutely! and if I Feel I have, I am the 1st to Say I'm Sorry and do my Damndist Not to do it again... I have No Problem admitting when i'm Wrong, or not playing fair... But within this Disease ALL Around me, I'm Quite Tired of being at Fault, or Blamed I Should say... for Others Issues, that I Had Nothing to do with! A Simple Kind Gesture, was Turned & Twisted to fit the Needs of the Sick, and Frankly i'm sick of it! Im Not Going to Quit Giving to those Worthy, but I'm Definitely OVER Helping those that come at me for no Reason!
I've had my Far share of Let downs over the Years, like we All have some Much Worse then Others.. and Frankly, I'm not in this world to do anything more then LIVE the Life God Gave me as I Choose, and not how others Think I Should... I"m not here to Give All of Me to Others (I tried that, and then I Lost Me) I am here to Help those I Can thru the Good & Tough Patches, and be there for those that are In Need of Help if I Can, But I Can't do it all, So I Guess there is going to be Hurt Feelings Somewhere!
I Come from a Family that is Consumed by Drama Lovers, those that have to Stir the Pot to Fill themselves up! Those that Blame everyone else for what They did to themselves... Those that Can't Keep Relationships even with Friends or anyone because they like to play games with Words, or Mind Games & Suck the Pity out of you... I got Into Recovery to Get Better & Get ME Back, Not be the Backside or the Shoe Sole for others...
I Own what is Mine, and I'm Far from Living My Life Perfectly, I Make Mistakes Sometimes Daily, but I Do my Best to stay on My side of the Street.. If I Can Help I Do! But I'm Taking back my Recovery, and Allowing them to do as they Please with their Life! This Illness is So Deep around me I Really don't need the Added Drama... Just this week there was 3 arrest within my Family, 2 had to did with addiction of course, and the other was just Plain Stupid! One Will Very Much Effect Our Business, but that too is out of Our Hands, so that ones Going to HP & as I am so Repeatedly told.. "It IS, what It is!" So I'm going to do my best to Keep on Keeping on... I'm getting back to My Recovery & My Serenity, and Frankly if that Selfishishly offends them I Guess I'll just have to Live with it, cause at this point... I'm Voting with My Feet, and Cutting my Losses... I know HP Will always be there to walk me thru the Mucky waters, so its time to Clean the boots & move on :)
Thanks for Letting Me Share....& Thanks for Being Here... I Sooo Miss You Guys & Gals & Your Recovery
Love, Hugs & Prayers... Oneness :)
Do ya Ever Just Get Tired of Other Peoples Drama? I have had a Ruff last Week, Like Many Im Sure, but it Continues to Keep Coming... And Tho I'm Not Trying to Control it, or Even Deal with it Really because Non of it is my Issue, they just Keep Throwing the Punches! They Keep Filling the Plate to Belittle me, Make me feel Less then I am, or Miss Preceive for thier Own personal satisfactions (I Guess) and then tell me not to take it personal when they brought it to me to begin with... Well I'm Def getting my Feet wet in the practicing of Principals above Personalitys part for sure...
I Don't Ever intentionally go out to hurt Someone, Has it Happened? Absolutely! and if I Feel I have, I am the 1st to Say I'm Sorry and do my Damndist Not to do it again... I have No Problem admitting when i'm Wrong, or not playing fair... But within this Disease ALL Around me, I'm Quite Tired of being at Fault, or Blamed I Should say... for Others Issues, that I Had Nothing to do with! A Simple Kind Gesture, was Turned & Twisted to fit the Needs of the Sick, and Frankly i'm sick of it! Im Not Going to Quit Giving to those Worthy, but I'm Definitely OVER Helping those that come at me for no Reason!
I've had my Far share of Let downs over the Years, like we All have some Much Worse then Others.. and Frankly, I'm not in this world to do anything more then LIVE the Life God Gave me as I Choose, and not how others Think I Should... I"m not here to Give All of Me to Others (I tried that, and then I Lost Me) I am here to Help those I Can thru the Good & Tough Patches, and be there for those that are In Need of Help if I Can, But I Can't do it all, So I Guess there is going to be Hurt Feelings Somewhere!
I Come from a Family that is Consumed by Drama Lovers, those that have to Stir the Pot to Fill themselves up! Those that Blame everyone else for what They did to themselves... Those that Can't Keep Relationships even with Friends or anyone because they like to play games with Words, or Mind Games & Suck the Pity out of you... I got Into Recovery to Get Better & Get ME Back, Not be the Backside or the Shoe Sole for others...
I Own what is Mine, and I'm Far from Living My Life Perfectly, I Make Mistakes Sometimes Daily, but I Do my Best to stay on My side of the Street.. If I Can Help I Do! But I'm Taking back my Recovery, and Allowing them to do as they Please with their Life! This Illness is So Deep around me I Really don't need the Added Drama... Just this week there was 3 arrest within my Family, 2 had to did with addiction of course, and the other was just Plain Stupid! One Will Very Much Effect Our Business, but that too is out of Our Hands, so that ones Going to HP & as I am so Repeatedly told.. "It IS, what It is!" So I'm going to do my best to Keep on Keeping on... I'm getting back to My Recovery & My Serenity, and Frankly if that Selfishishly offends them I Guess I'll just have to Live with it, cause at this point... I'm Voting with My Feet, and Cutting my Losses... I know HP Will always be there to walk me thru the Mucky waters, so its time to Clean the boots & move on :)
Thanks for Letting Me Share....& Thanks for Being Here... I Sooo Miss You Guys & Gals & Your Recovery
Love, Hugs & Prayers... Oneness :)
In this past year I have reviewed some friendships that were pretty toxic and as you would say "cut my losses."
It's just not worth it... I had my fill of drama as a kid and I don't need it anymore...