Abandonment Community Group

At one time or annother, we are all faced with the pain of abandonment. Whether the person(s) who walked out on you was a parent, partner or friend, it hurts. This is a place of friendship and support.

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My life has never been easy. As a child I didn't know any better,I just thought the things I went through were normal. It wasn't until I moved away from home and started college that I started realizing I had issues. At first I thought it was Anger Management. My mom recently divorced her drunken, drug addicted, husband of 14 years. and I was was ticked off at the world. My childhood had been wasted on that jerk, just so she could up and leave him when I moved out. This and the out of the blue " PROUD Father" act I got from my biological father who ran out on me at the age of 3. Seems I reminded him of my mother and he just couldn't cope with loosing her. I remember as a little girl. My dad would call and tell me was coming to pick me up. Id get so excited!!! Run from room to room packing my bag. Sit and wait for hours some times till 10 or 11 at night. Nine times out of ten he didn't show. I would spend holidays with his parents. He would come in for dinner give me a hug and and leave again. On my 10th Birthday he called. The conversation started out good. But ended with a baby crying in the back ground. "Well daughter I have to go... Daddy has a new family now and your brother is fussy." Click That moment has stuck with me for 20 years and i still remember it like yesterday.

I'm not one to let things get me down for long. I always bounce right back to my happy go lucky self. But the up and comig event of my wedding has my emotions running high. In what is supposed to be the happiest days of ones life I find my self on edge moody and down right depressed. Matter of fact I found this site, due to a search title of " Why do my parents hate me"
radrm
radrm
Oh I can imagine how the flood gates to your emotions have opened up and remembering the life chaning moments that had a profound affect on you. I felt the abandonment deeply and still do. I am trying to figure out how to get past all the emotions and feelings and heal. I am getting help to do this and don't think I can do it myself since its been my whole life and I had no success yet. For a long time I didn't even recognize what it was. I guess that would be step one is recognize the problem? I hope you can overcome the negative memories and make good new memories for your wedding. I get depressed and moody a lot too many feelings of insecurity etc. dread, fear, anxiety, and depression. Guess that is why I am here too. I forgive my mom for leaving me and for all the neglect and abandonment but I still am messed up from it all. I dont hate her but at times I admit I do feel anger and resentment over what i went through. I hope we both come out on the other side one day soon and are able to feel happiness from in ourselves. That is what I am looking for. They say lots of self care and pay attention to your own needs. I feel numb for days on end.
I don't think your parents hated you, I think they did not have what it takes to be a parent and nurture you. why that is we will probably never know. I sort of look at it like this with my mother "She was not capable and did her best" even though that doesn't make it ok for us I can't keep wondering why and blaming her because I am the one who needs to change and get over it especially since she cant and never could help me.