At one time or annother, we are all faced with the pain of abandonment. Whether the person(s) who walked out on you was a parent, partner or friend, it hurts. This is a place of friendship and support.
My life has never been easy. As a child I didn't know any better,I just thought the things I went through were normal. It wasn't until I moved away from home and started college that I started realizing I had issues. At first I thought it was Anger Management. My mom recently divorced her drunken, drug addicted, husband of 14 years. and I was was ticked off at the world. My childhood had been wasted on that jerk, just so she could up and leave him when I moved out. This and the out of the blue " PROUD Father" act I got from my biological father who ran out on me at the age of 3. Seems I reminded him of my mother and he just couldn't cope with loosing her. I remember as a little girl. My dad would call and tell me was coming to pick me up. Id get so excited!!! Run from room to room packing my bag. Sit and wait for hours some times till 10 or 11 at night. Nine times out of ten he didn't show. I would spend holidays with his parents. He would come in for dinner give me a hug and and leave again. On my 10th Birthday he called. The conversation started out good. But ended with a baby crying in the back ground. "Well daughter I have to go... Daddy has a new family now and your brother is fussy." Click That moment has stuck with me for 20 years and i still remember it like yesterday.
I'm not one to let things get me down for long. I always bounce right back to my happy go lucky self. But the up and comig event of my wedding has my emotions running high. In what is supposed to be the happiest days of ones life I find my self on edge moody and down right depressed. Matter of fact I found this site, due to a search title of " Why do my parents hate me"