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Hi all,
I just wanted to post to say that I am 7 years sober today. I wanted to do it not to brag or for reasons of pride but to carry the message that it is possible to stay sober and change your life through AA.
I don't need to share much about my drinking as we all know what active alcoholism is like. I kept making a decision not to drink and ending up doing it anyway and when I drank I ended up drunk despite my best intentions. It messed up my life in lots of ways but most of all it messed me up inside. I had a terrible fear, loneliness, disconnection and a huge hole inside that I desperately tried to fill. Using alcohol was like pouring in battery acid, I wanted it to fill the hole but it actually made it bigger, corroded my soul.
When I came to AA I was empty, I was missing from my own life and I was much closer to dying than living. I felt hopeless and helpless. I didnt embrace AA and the steps straight away. I had to try the old ideas a few more times. But I knew the solution was there and I wanted it.
I became as willing, honest and open minded as I could be at the time and did what was suggested to me. I worked the 12 steps as per the instructions in the big book. Things started to change and they havent stopped changing since.
My life is completely different today in too many ways to explain. I dont have that hole inside any more and I am part of my life and other peoples. The two most important things I do today are practice spiritual principles in my life and carry the message of recovery to other alcoholics. This isnt an obligation or a burden, it is an honour and a privilege. I often say I got well despite myself not by myself. I have had an amazing amount of love, compassion and fellowship from many people and it is the best thing I can do - to try to share with others what was freely given to me.
As a result my life is full of possibilties. It isnt always wonderful - whose life is? But I have a way of dealing with things now which I never had before.
Whoever you are, whatever has happened to you, whatever you believe, however you feel now - this can happen for you too. It really can if it is what you want and you are willing to do what it takes. Alcoholism is a seemingly hopeless state of mind and body - that means it seems hopeless but it doesnt have to be.
Thank you to everyone here, DS has been part of my journey for the last year and it has been very valuable to me. If i can ever help anyone at any time, just let me know.
Peace and fellowship
Nicky.
I just wanted to post to say that I am 7 years sober today. I wanted to do it not to brag or for reasons of pride but to carry the message that it is possible to stay sober and change your life through AA.
I don't need to share much about my drinking as we all know what active alcoholism is like. I kept making a decision not to drink and ending up doing it anyway and when I drank I ended up drunk despite my best intentions. It messed up my life in lots of ways but most of all it messed me up inside. I had a terrible fear, loneliness, disconnection and a huge hole inside that I desperately tried to fill. Using alcohol was like pouring in battery acid, I wanted it to fill the hole but it actually made it bigger, corroded my soul.
When I came to AA I was empty, I was missing from my own life and I was much closer to dying than living. I felt hopeless and helpless. I didnt embrace AA and the steps straight away. I had to try the old ideas a few more times. But I knew the solution was there and I wanted it.
I became as willing, honest and open minded as I could be at the time and did what was suggested to me. I worked the 12 steps as per the instructions in the big book. Things started to change and they havent stopped changing since.
My life is completely different today in too many ways to explain. I dont have that hole inside any more and I am part of my life and other peoples. The two most important things I do today are practice spiritual principles in my life and carry the message of recovery to other alcoholics. This isnt an obligation or a burden, it is an honour and a privilege. I often say I got well despite myself not by myself. I have had an amazing amount of love, compassion and fellowship from many people and it is the best thing I can do - to try to share with others what was freely given to me.
As a result my life is full of possibilties. It isnt always wonderful - whose life is? But I have a way of dealing with things now which I never had before.
Whoever you are, whatever has happened to you, whatever you believe, however you feel now - this can happen for you too. It really can if it is what you want and you are willing to do what it takes. Alcoholism is a seemingly hopeless state of mind and body - that means it seems hopeless but it doesnt have to be.
Thank you to everyone here, DS has been part of my journey for the last year and it has been very valuable to me. If i can ever help anyone at any time, just let me know.
Peace and fellowship
Nicky.
Thank you for the awesome message of hope. Wonderful way to share what it was like, what happened and what it's like now. True testimonial to the power of God/HP. Rock on Nicky!!!!!
Happppppppppppppppppy Birthday to you
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Thanks so much for being here and I hope you have a wonderful day.
Thanks for sharing Nicky, you are a good asset to this site.
Just as a bit of fun, have you seen this: http://www.aahistory.com/days.html
Your description about the hole in the sole I thought I was reading something I had written this is my story too. You say the alcohol was like acid I like this description I would say the alcohol would make the hole bigger. I really identified with what you have said.
Well done Nicky
G8
You are a true blessing!
Lyn x