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"Courage is not the absence of fear but rather the judgement that something else is more important than fear. The brave may not live forever but the cautious do not live at all."
Loved it.
I thought me fearful?? Ya right, how wrong I was.
I know I was purposely trying to not be conscious of the issue being dug up by the triggering event & I believe between the minds purposeful blocking out & the pills ability to create blackouts I blacked out. I've had 3 previous procedures with the same dose of the same medication and no blackouts. The only difference was my consciously attempting to prevent it this time rather than medicating an already happening reaction.
I am amazed at the minds ability to keep us safe from a perceived fear real or imagined doesn't matter.
I don't know what will happen on wed when I have to do this again, but I think I am ready for just about anything now. I will be okay, this I know. I have a lot of motivation to follow through with the added outside help now and will be seeking out a competent counselor for guidance through this asap.Tired now... so much more to share so maybe tomorrow.
As always Billy...... thanks for the great post.