I am coping with the loss of my nine year old son and my dear husband. I have had to live without them for a little over two years now. I find that I can now talk about my husband without bursting into tears every time however I just can't manage to even recall memories of my son without falling apart. I miss his smile. I miss being his mommy. I want to hear him call for me. I wonder if I will ever be able to recall my life with my little boy. I find it too painful but I want to remember him. I don't want to lose my memories of him too.
I am sorry for your loss , It's so hard to forget the memories of our loveones ,How we wish that one day they come back and be with us again but its all a dream now for us who was left behind.How i wish that I will be able to talk about my husband without a tears , but I know someday it wil happen.
I feel every word you say and Im wishing you that you will be stronger and better.
Hugs,
charmaine