First I would like to welcome you to the group. You can share anything here without the fear of judgement which isn't allowed in this group. There is nothing wrong with you, I just feel that maybe you haven't accepted that you suffer from a form of depression. Have you gone to any kind of therapy to find out if it's depression, sadness, or lack of self esteem? Many things can cause us to feel depressed. I'm really sorry you have lost people because they didn't want to stay around to try and help you. I hope we are able to give you the support here that you are so desperately looking for. Big Hugs and again, welcome.

GLAD UR HERE. I AGREE WITH gramybear.

Thank you for the welcome and I haven't gone to anyone to see yet but people keep telling me to. Do you really think I should? I've been thinking about it more lately and might go.

Welcome! I feel that you have to do what feels right to you. Maybe someday you'll be ready to talk to someone. You don't have to walk into an office and say I'm crazy. Help me. Fix me. You could even say what you told us: I'd personally start with I'm afraid of myself then you'll talk that out and maybe mention losing your gf and the people you care about. Stubborn? I wouldn't call you that. It's something new. I don't think it sounds like anything is wrong with you. I think the question is: what's wrong with the others in your life? I'm no professional though.

Thank you all again. But I probably should just speak out in all cause I got into a car accident today because of it. Wasn't paying attention cause of everything on my mind and hit a truck. Everyone is okay just shooken up. But I was apparently a few feet from dying. Was only going 35 but was almost head on so I think I'm just going to have to talk to someone.

I think speaking to someone would be reasonable. It's really distracting you and you need to get past that.

I wanted to check in on you and see how you are doing? Please know you can send me a P message anytime and I will answer it as soon as I receive it. Sometimes it takes awhile to open up, especially in a large group. You are never ever alone!!! Big Hugs

Ja Rod, so glad you are o.k. from accident. it is hard to open up and talk to someone, know it is their job to listen, but hopefully you find someone who really listens not just hears words. might take couple of tries to find the right person to confide in. You are not crazy if depressed. We all have those times in our life for many reasons. I have been left down by family and some close folks, never thought they would. those closest to us if they let us down, it does hurt deep..but you know what i have learned??? those that leave us, were not EVER REALLY WITH // FOR US, to being with. even if not a relationship, help us/you as a friend... I have struggled with depression for yrs. hereditary also. sometimes confiding in friend or family is not the best either. they may mean well but to close to offer help or listening ear you might need. If all of this is distracting you, which you said it is, and accident, so glad all o.k., count this was warning, that it is time... God has a way of giving us these little notices, not always easy to listen to what we know is in our hearts or might need to hear, but in long run it is the best for us.. chat away here...we are all here to listen.. and can give you our life lessons..there are no failures every thing we do or try is a lesson in some way or other to learn from. we all slip back and we all go forward once more. hugs my new friend.

Thanks again. I talked to my doctor and I was prescribed some medicine that is supposed to help. She said i do have a form.of depression and also gave me a counselor. I'm hoping it all helps but thank you all for giving your advice and welcoming me

Thank you for the P message. I did respond and so glad you are getting help. More happy that you weren't hurt badly in that accident!! I know that feeling of spacing out which I do often due to Fibromyalgia. I also can't afford a car so I walk everywhere. Can't say I haven't walked in front of a car because I'm "somewhere else"!! Big Hugs