HELLO BEAU, GOOD NEWS ,MET MY SPONSOR DOG, A SWEET DOG CALLED ROCKY, HE IS 12, PETTED HIM, GAVE HIM BISCUITS, A FLEECE WARM BLANKET, AND WALKED HIM, HE IS SUCH A SWEET ,CALM DOG, BAD NEWS HE LIVES AT THE RESCUE RETIREMENT HOME , AND I WISH I COULD TAKE HIM HOME, SO SAD TO LEAVE HIM THERE**
I NEED YOUR OPINIONS, I WASH MY HANDS IF I TOUGH SOMETHING DIRTY, LIKE AFTER I PUT MY SHOES ON, AND FOR MOST THINGS, BUT THE REST OF MY FAMILY , UPSET ME , THEY DON'T , AND THIS IS BECOMING A PROBLEM, THEY SEE ME LIKE A NUISANCE, BUT IT AFFECTS ME, LIKE IF YOU TOUCH AND PLAY WITH THE DOGS, OR TAKE THEM OUT, WASH HANDS, AND THEY DON'T, IT IS AFFECTING ME BADLY, AND I KEPT WASHING ALL HANDLES, AND SO ON, I FEEL THAT THEY ARE NOT CAREFUL WITH HANDWASHING, AND GENERAL HYGINE, TIDINESS, AND I AM STRESSING MYSELF, I DO HAVE TO BE CLEAN, AND USE TOWELS OF DIFFERENT SIZE , FACE, FEET, AND A LARGE ONE, I AM SO TIRED OF BEING TOLD TO MIND MYSELF, WHEN THEY ARE NOT WASHING THEIR DIRTY HANDS, OR DRYING WITH THE SAME TOWEL, AND NOT LISTENING TO THE FACT THAT THERE IS BACTERIA AND GERMS, VIRUSES LURKING ALL OVER***
MY DAUGHTER HAD THAT NOROVIRUS YEARS AGO, AND WHO LOOKS AFTER HER, ME, LAST YEAR IT WAS SALMONELLA, AND HER HUSBAND HAD IT TOO, ALL I ASK IS TO BE CAREFUL ,WASH YOUR HANDS**
WELL THEY ARE GONE HOME, AND I AM HOME, HOPE THEY WASH THEIR HANDS, WHAT DO YOU THINK?
LOVE LUCY***

The owner of my company has cancer, when he dies the company will close and I'll be out of a job. I have bipolar and can barely work as it is, I won't be able to find another job. I've been homeless before and can't do it again, so when he dies I'm considering suicide. Sorry this sounds so heavy but it's where I'm at now.

JOYHOLY, glad you met your new friend Rocky. I don't know what to say about the hand-washing situation. I do wash my hands after handling money, because you never know where its been.

Heretic, I know things may not look good now, but you have options you might not be thinking about in your present state of mind. I've been homeless on and off throughout my lifetime, usually for a few years at a time. What I do is keep a homeless survival backpack at all times. It has a sleeping bag, water bottles, some food, and a couple of changes of clothes. If I do become homeless again, it will get me through the first few weeks, or until it is stolen from me on the streets. Right now, while you have a place to call home, with a shower or bathtub and electricity and all that, you are in the perfect situation to begin looking for new employment. You may not always be in such a good situation, so take advantage of it now. Make a list of your personal reference people along with their telephone numbers that you would want to put on a job application. Make a list of past employers, complete with names of supervisors and dates of employment. Remember, every company must have a certain minimum number of people to stay in business, and among that number there are people who are retiring or leaving for other reasons; those people will need to be replaced by people like you. One technique I have used in the past was to go to shopping centers and walk up and down streets, stopping in every business and asking for an employment application. It's a lot of work, but it's a numbers game - sooner or later you will find someone who will accept your application and contact you for an interview among the many companies you visit. You may find a better job than the one you have now.

Does anyone else have feedback for JOYHOLY and Heretic? How about what's going on in your life as well?

I can't hold down a "normal" job because of my illness. I should be on disability but the free mental health clinic I go to does not evaluate for disability. The only reason I have held on to the job I have is because they allow me many days off when ever I need them, I really hate working, as I've said before, and have no desire whatsoever to find a different job. I don't want to work. I hate it. I wish I was dead every day, not that I want to do myself harm, I just want to pass away peacefully in my sleep and beg god every night to please please please take me home where I belong. Losing my job could be a blessing as it will force me to end this misery I live in now.

Hi Heretic Thats so very sad that your boss has cancer. It can be very hard to know ahead of time that you will be facing a big change like needing to find different income. Maybe there might be someone that takes over the business? If not then Beaumont is right..... now is the perfect time to start working on getting things in order.... making out a resume and looking into places that might be hiring in your area. If possible try to cut expenses and save back alittle out of each paycheck just incase. It is so hard to look at the good when things seem hopeless but keep taking it a step at a time and look at the possiblities that you could try. Maybe you will find a job and it will be even better for your situation.... maybe someone will take over the business.... please dont give up keep moving forward stay strong. HugggzZz

Hi Heretic,

Sometimes a lawyer helps when it comes to getting disability. My sister fought with the powers that be for disability for a year or more and was not successful but when she got a lawyer - she was successful in getting disability.

I am generally not a fan of lawyers but in the case of disability, it might be a good idea. They take their fee out of the settlement and the rest of the payments go to you.

I know how you feel - I thnk. I could no more hold a job down at this point - well - than fly......I can barely remember what I need to get at the grocery store, much less what I would need to do on a job. Please take look online for a disability lawyer in your area. Nothing tried - nothing gained. It can't hurt to look.

Good luck.

Linda

HELLO HERETIC, SO SORRY ABOUT YOUR SITUATION,YOU DO YOUR BEST TO FIND A JOB, BUT DO CONSIDER THE DISABILITY ,YOU NEED SOME PEACE AND QUIET,FIND INFO NOW, I KNOW SOME FRIENDS HERE THAT ARE ON DISABILITY, PLEASE KEEP POSTING AND LET US KNOW HOW YOU GET ON, WE ARE HERE TO SUPPORT YOU , LOVE LUCY***

Hi Heretic; Most cities/town have a social worker. Ours has a ton of resources. Perhaps if your place of work does close, you may want to call the main number of your city/town and ask to speak with the social worker and then make an appointment with her. Explain the entire situation and she/he may have various resources for you to try. Ours arranges for food stamps, for help with electricity and natural gas, meals on wheels or reduced costs meals at the local senior center, plus so much more. Good luck and many hugs.

I live in Las Vegas and we have no resources. They just closed one of the four mental health centers we had because of budget cuts. I've been trying to get food stamps but so far no luck. When I was homeless last November I couldn't get into a shelter because they are all full. You are lucky to live in a town with a ton of resources. We have basically none left. I tried getting rental assistance from many places but they are all out of money. Everywhere I turned I was turned away. I now live in a single room weekly rental in a crack infested neighborhood. I pray to die every day. I have no family, no friends, and I can't seem to make anyone understand how horrible life is for me. Having friends on DS doesn't change my life. I need someone living with me taking care of me. I am very sick with bipolar and other illnesses. But I've never had anyone take care of me in all of my whole life. I miss alot of work because I am so sick. I hate having to work and can't get disability because the mental health clinic I go to won't evaluate for it. I am so sick and so tired and no one understands. They all say Hang in there - It will get better, but it doesn't, it gets worse. I should just quit trying to make people understand, It's hopeless.

You need a friend to help you. There are good people in the world, and even if you are homeless there is always the chance that you will find one.

We can't see the future based on the past. The future is nearly always different than the past. Your past is dismal, I'll grant you that...but you are making a mistake if you think that your unhappy past dictates your future. You could have a good future out there, but if you off yourself you'll never get a chance at it. There is always a chance that things will get better, they don't always get worse. I don't think you're seeing things clearly right now.

There is only one way that you'll have a zero chance at a better life...and it sounds like that's the option you want to take. Don't do it. Any number is better than zero.

Five years from now the economy could be booming and Vegas could be rolling in cash. There could be all kinds of help for people with illness. Haven't you got the stuff to stick it out for a while? You're probably a hundred times tougher than you think you are.

I lived on the street and I made it through that part of my life. Be strong, not weak.

A chipmunk ate half of my baby trees! He was trapped in the laundry basket on the porch while the small dog did his best to try and get in to play with him.

What fun?

Anyway, today I noticed that three more have decided to grow with the warming of the sun.
AND I am putting out food for the chipmunk so he is not tempted to eat the tops off these baby trees.
Hope it is not a momma munk but I need my trees.

That is my life

can you go to a church and ask for some help?
We have no job either. I don't know what we will do soon when our little savings runs out.

I can't imagine how anyone thinks that this adminstration is making things better.......I have never lived thru so much bad news and out of work.
It is scary.

Heritic - I wish I could send help. All I can do is pray for an angel to come to your aid.

I know how you feel. I am in constant horrid physical pain from undiagnosed Celiac. The docs told me I was depressed until I weighed 90 pounds (5'8" tall - I looked like those pics of starving children from Africa)
I have permanent damge everywhere. I have some small amount of meds that helps on those days when it is really bad.
The addicts in FLA have made it nearly impossible for docs to give them out and more and more people are just being left to suffer in pain. I plan on ending it when the docs won't help with those days anymore too.
It is so hard to have mental or physical pain in society today. Only the healthy and "go-getters" are viewed as valuable seems to me.
We hear about "he works 90 hours a week" like it is heroic instead of rude to others who can't put in those hours. Why not work 40 hours and put the rest toward helping those who can't help themselves that much???

Sorry, that is my soap box.

Hi
I have no great words of wisdom as I live over the pond so don't know your systems, but I can listen and be a friend. Take good care of you..

Good luck with feeding the chipmunk Sunnybunn - I'm hoping he doesn't go out and bring all of his friends back to help him eat his new find :) You might need a very big bag of chipmunk food to keep you trees safe.


Keep us posted - okay?