I hope you're right about this, Jenny, I really do. I had a nightmare where I was molested sexually last night...thought I was past that kind of thing. I was a child in the dream, in a dark room, and the molester was an older man who had me pinned against something with his body. I felt so much hatred for him...I can still feel the power of that hatred now.

Maybe I just have more to deal with, I'll try to be hopeful.

I am beginning to feel a little freedom from my past, and I hope to experience greater freedom to come. I am gradually overcoming some of my generalized fear of people, and I am beginning to better trust the decisions I make.

I hope that each and all of you will experience increasing freedom from your past as time goes by.

I think it depends on what day (or even time of day) I'm asked. Most of the time the answer is no. Every once in a while there's some glimmer of hope, but that doesn't last long.

Hi,

I hope we all reach that point, but some days it is easier to believe than others.

Shar

After a traumatic drug and alcohol rehab, I was, in 1987, in a state of extreme trauma. It was all the abuse all my life, had compounded to cause me a mental breakdown. Since then, I've been sober except for 11 days, and in therapy. For the first 10 years, i was in and out of psych hospital, wondering if this phase would ever end. Then the next 10 years slowly got better, with some setbacks. Now, the last few years in particular, I've been largely free. I no longer feel things like trauma, pain, acute fear, rage, shame, self blame, torment, torture. I am on a moderate amount of psych drugs, but even on psych drugs, I used to feel all those things. These days, I'm living a - shock, horror - normal life. I study part time, work part time, go to AA, and have some good friends. It's really weird. sometimes I wonder if I've got any feelings, just because I don't feel the stuff listed earlier.
I've done a lot of therapy, and I'm a big fan of it.

No i dont beleve i can get over it i been free for a lil over a month now an im still scared didnt know da real world wuz so scary used ta b livin at da grave yard an stuff when i could never stayed at da house wid da monsters but now i am free forever but instead of livin on a streets im in a temerary house its very scary any every thing iz new i hate it but i wana prove dat every ding iz obr but its not workin im about ready ta just run an idc were i run ta any were away from peoples would b great but i dont think any ding will ever b better diz iz az good az its gonna get