I have been sitting here..bawling..and even feeling angry with some family members. Amy saw the breast surgeon this afternoon. He wants to put her under general anesthsia and remove the whole tumor. (gee..thought that was the purpose of the surgery) Then he said that when he got in there, he may just take some large tissue samples and leave the rest. Amy said that Dr. Tripp listened to her as she told him about her fears, her medical history: degenerative neuropathy, her pulmonary disease, being bipolar, obesity, etc. He said that he would have to discuss everything with Dr. Nadruse and Dr. Hussani (pulmonary & neurologist) but wanted to get her lungs functioning at their best, all things considered and get her into surgery asap. He did discuss venting her, which terrifies Amy. She told him about her 3 "dirt naps" last year. He was very compassionate and very sensative to Amy's fears. Amy noticed when she was filling out the paperwork, that Dr. Tripp doesn't accept her insurance. (blue-care/TNNcare) Because she was referred to him by the Cheyenne breast center, he'll take her case..pro bono. The finacial lady told her not to worry about anything having to do with finances. Praise the Lord! I am so very overwhelmed right now..that I can't seem to think straight. Meanwhile, my sister is angry with me because I told her I was going to see Amy before surgery so we could do some girlie things together and we would have to celebrate our birthday at a later date. Her sister is doing the "poor pitiful me" and using Amy as an excuse for her stess as she starts yet another semester for her master's degree, while working "my butt off..... I'm so broke I can barely breathe." etc. Well, if you have money for a mani and a pedi, dinner out with the girls and a movie...take a breath, because the many of us can't afford to do that. It's called Priorities! Amy is facing death on a daily basis, facing a difficult surgery..and you two are whining about YOURSELVES! Oh & BTW....mom/sis has meniere's and is wondering how she is going to get to TN without a panic attack...and trying to figure out how she is going to drive in a big city on her own! Honestly! My sister actually said " I hope the surgeon will wait until after our Birthday. They don't work on Labor Day anyway...so let's not cancel our plans. Plans? The plan is to come to sis's house and let her wait on us hand and foot. The house will be clean for all of about 5 mins..because those two are more distructive than a hurricane! Please...give me a break..will you? Amy is very sensative to my disease. It makes her cry. She knows this is very difficult for me...I'm her mommy! Sometimes I really get angry when people are so stinking selfish and inconsiderate of other people's circumstances. Life isn't always about me,me,me! Show some compassion for a change. Amy's sister doesn't even call or text her! Her aunt doesn't call her either....come on people! You tell the whole world how upset you are about Amy and how she's dying..but you don't give her the time of day! I guess I don't understand it. Maybe they just don't get it. If they would just take the time to talk to Amy..they may find out just how strong she is. They may find out how compassionate she is for others. They may find out about her faith and how it sustains her. But no...Amy is a convienent excuse for their problems..and to get the Aw, I'm sorry from friends...or their employers. Forgive me for venting...I just had to get these feeling out. It makes me so sad..and mad at the same time.