ups and downs

i feel like things will get better i dont feel powerless anymore i know that it will get better now im just adjusting to things and the way they are im feeling like this is happening for a reason and i just have to stick around to find out why its a struggle but im doing it   I AM IN CONTROL OF THE SHIT THAT I ALLOW IN MY LIFE!!! I WILL GET MY POWER BACK AND NEVER LET IT GO AGAIN!!!  I AM WORTHY OF LOVE AND RESPECT!!! GOD DID NOT MAKE ME FOR DOORMAT PURPOSES!!! I WILL BE A BETTER WOMAN BECAUSE OF THIS!!!