Summer Expectations

Hello Everyone. Just updating because it's been a while. In the last couple months quite a bit happened, all good, and I've been busy living a good life. I haven't even been triggered by the divorce issues for the past 6 months which I take as an excellent sign. I feel DONE with it. And interestingly, just when I felt detached from the drama, the pain, the anger etc, suddenly, I hear nothing from him, the kids hear nothing from him. At all. Curious. And a welcomed relief really. But I hadn't noticed this until recently after living the last 6 months in increasing bliss. What I noticed in my process was first I had to learn to tolerate bliss. I got gradually better with that, slips up here and there, and eventually longer periods of holding onto my bliss. The negative thoughts were easier to challenge and I held fast to my positive direction. It is my life and only I can make it beautiful and fun. When I started to really understand the important of my personal accountability and responsibility to making my life special, big changes happened. I completed required graduate courses which enabled me to get my license to practice. Big accomplishment. I wouldn't have had the concentration to complete the 2 classes had I been fretting about him and the past. My business started to boom as well, interesting timing. In addition to completing education and work goals, I have 3 new friends that I reached out and made happen. Being with girlfriends is important to me so I'm making that happen instead of shying away. And, I met a guy who is very intriguing to me and very respectful. Not jumping into anything of course but I am enjoying being treated like a queen. AS IT SHOULD BE, right? Took me a while to understand that I'm worthy. Now that I have learned to tolerate bliss more, my entire bliss consciousness has elevated to a way higher level. I had no idea this existed "out there." I'm here to tell you all, stay true to yourself and choose bliss, not old patterns. You cannot change who your are and get what you want most by being the same. Got to change the patterns from negative focus to a positive focus. Today, I live bliss, I don't just tolerate bliss now. I incorapated in deep within. It took a but to "get it" but finally I realize I am worthy, lovable, loved, whole, and safe. It was the safe part that tripped me up the longest. But I learned to distinguish between REAL threats and PERCEIVED threats. And guess what? They are 99% PERCEPTION, not real. We just THINK or BELIEVE he or it will hurt us. Nope. I lost all in my divorce, literally. NO furniture, retirement stolen, home lost, no savings, NADA. And 3 years later, I am the happiest I have ever been in my entire life. Because I live in bliss. Doesn't mean I don't have sad days or feel frustrated. But, because I choose bliss, it alters how I handle those bad days. If I chose dysfunction, I'd make WAY different choices that would feed bad energy into the drama and keep that alive. Well, if you can see how that energy boost drama, think of putting that personal energy into bliss and watch how that improves dramatically. The results, I promise, are so much better, lasting, and rewarding. Plus, positive choices move you more deeply into bliss, happiness, and personal satisfaction. So, anyway, that is what I have been learning lately and wanted to pass it on for whatever it's worth and for whomever may be ready to step into her or his bliss today. BTW, results are immediate. So when you make this commitment to self, be ready because your life is about to take off when you take charge. Good lucks. Happy rest of spring...

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amazinggrace15
amazinggrace15

Thank you for your update. Sounds like you have found your way.
Marie
VectorForward
VectorForward

Terrific journal entry! I\'m glad to hear you are doing so well. If you are ever in Jackson, let me know. The Jackson Hole Writer\'s Conference is the end of June...23rd through ??? Gretel Ehrlich is the keynote speaker and Neal Conan will be there too. Best wishes.
CowgirlKathi
CowgirlKathi

Another terrific journal entry, my friend. There IS a good life out there after divorce and you are proving it once again.
backcountryflygirl
backcountryflygirl

Thanks everyone. Amazing Grace, I\'m not \"there\" yet but enjoying the journey finally. I let go and well, learning to trust ME. I\'ll be in touch VectorForward about the writer\'s conference. Funny you should say that...I\'ve been wondering about attending one soon. My email is: backcountryflygirl@gmail.com. Feel free to contact me anytime. Love to meet you. And Kathi, well, you are an inspiration, MISS MINIWINNIE getting out there and living life yourself. Thanks to you all.