Relationship

Yesterday Ivan kind of put the skids under me by saying that our relationship wasn't that great and that he wondered if we'd stay together long term.
I was surprised to hear this, I thought we were getting along just fine. I guess there are parts of our relationship that aren't ideal (you figure it out!)-but I love him and our life here, and am not at all keen on leaving to start again-yet again....
Later he said he loved me-but I guess he loves his mother too-doesnt mean he wants to live with her...
Anyway I guess we will always be friends- just not sure when my next move will happen. Maybe I knew this all along...I can cope with whatever Life dishes me up....
If I had to move he wouldn't throw me out on the street...and im sure he would help me find a place...just not today, please....
Otherwise I feel good....again! Day 17 in  a row, with no black mood in the morning and  a steady 8 out of ten....
Wow! this is so good.
My trip....it's daunting but I can do it. Probably cos I don't know how daunting it's going to be. Lol. I need to make itinerary up and look at accommodation. Going to check with US Consulate next day or two. Also check online for cheapie places to stay and bus timetables.
Looking forward to seeing Koon and Tim for my first 2 stops-and dear Joe of course...he is such a nice guy! I feel like I've known him for real and for ages.
Need to sort out other stops to cover different health issues- bipolar, depression, rape,  PTSD,bisexuality, infidelity, obesity, anxiety,OCD, incest, teen cancer
How do you write a book? One page at a time.
Here's my 300 words. Need to be in touch with Koon for writing support....