Not so much the end of an era, but the start of a new one

Dear Kitty,             I'm not entirely sure what's up with me at the moment. I'm having ridiculous mood-swings; I'm either totally happy, relaxed and smiley, or I'll cry over the silliest thing and then snap at people for the rest of the day. I even managed to cry over 'The Holiday' yesterday - don't ask how. I expect it's because I'm sleepy - Christmas and the loss of the ability to sleep properly do not make for a good mix. Oh well. It's strange, and I don't know what it is. I just feel kind of like...like there's an enormous empty space inside me. It's been there for a while, but occasionally it'll just make me feel all horrible and - I can't really describe it, but it makes me sad. I'll probably be fine when I get back to school.             Re-reading that - and I've been thinking about this for a while - it's like reading one of my first blogs. I was only fourteen when I started this, and now I'm sixteen. But I don't really feel or look any different. Ok, I wear make-up most of the time, and my hair is a lot shorter - and greener - than it was; I've done my GCSEs, and I'm in Sixth Form, preparing for a diploma and thinking about universities. But apart from those, I'm not really any different. Isla and Fraser are still two of my best friends, Freya and Katie and I still mess around together, and I'm still obsessed with Japan.             Anyway, the main point of this entry is yet another list. It's almost the end of 2009, and a new decade of the millenium will begin. And a lot has happened. So, being self-centred again, this is my view of the decade:- I''ve got through three schools, and I've only got a year and a half left at this one.- I'm living in my sixth house.- in 2004, Isla, Charly, Lexie and Rosa accepted me as a friend - and it's been the same with three of them ever since. And Steph stood next to me in Junior Strings.- in 2005, Dad stopped taking his medication, sorted the garden and was officially better, and I did my first big concerto after being hit with a hockey stick and was put onto medication myself.- in 2006, I met Fraser and a French exchange called Aude.- in 2007, I properly met Tom, Greg and Peter - and started SHing (take the good with the bad)- in 2008, I got to know Hector, Freya, Katie and Georgie and did concertos in Malaysia, Thailand and Hong Kong.- in 2009: too much happened and I don't remember all of it, but GCSEs were finished and I did my first solo in Chapel (and London)- in 2010, who knows?At this point, I'd like to thank everyone who has actually stuck by me - Isla having known me for the longest and is probably fed up with me now, and for being there in Maths, and Chemistry and everything else last year, and for making me smile, and for her beard; Fraser, for being my partner in English in Third Form, and sticking with me since, even though I've probably driven you mad, and for taking me to Open House and Barnwell; Charly, for sitting with me all through First and Second Form, and making me laugh despite the Berrystead; Lexie, for keeping me out of the Berrystead as much as possible and helping me; Rosa, for...just being you, really; Tom, for walking back from orchestra with me, cheering me up, and everything else that you did; Hector, for everything, and for getting me back into Pokemon; Freya, for all the silly times that we've had - most memorably, Film Sundays, toast, ice cream and that day in Barnwell; Katie, for being the most insane cabbage I have ever met and all the amazing times we've had - like your party, the circle of biting, breaking the sewing machine and vlogging; Georgie, for being hyper and hilarious; Steph, for your teeth, the hopping game, sliding down the banisters, driving all the music teachers insane and all the silly jokes you've told me.This is all done in a nutshell/case, but I don't have time to write more. All I can say is thank you to everyone. You've all totally influenced and changed me and - too much else to say, but thank you all so much.I love every single one of you more than you know.Yours,Francesca

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\"YOU HAV A BEARD??!!!\" lol! love u fran, muchos! xxxxxx
ChibiChibi
ChibiChibi

\'See, that lady just got her umbrella stuck in the car too!\'
love you too, o bearded wench
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