new it wouldnt laast long!! =[

nick just had a massive go at me because i asked for help with our daughter who was screaming and wouldnt settle. he shouted at me and told me hes not putting up with this shit anymore! =[
 
he then chucked pillows at me and told me to fuck off. i then shouted at my daughter telling her to shut up and that it was her fault me and her dad rowed i feel like such a shit person right now really feel like cutting and just hididng away! m a crap mum but i love my daughter so so very much. theres no point living if im not with her!
 
i dont know what to do.. i cant cut incase people think i cant look after her. so im crying again. i love him but i feel her mentally abuses me calling me names and putting me down. hes never nice for long! i want that boyfriend back not this nasty one!!!
i love you lillba! xxxx Mummy always will xxx and im so so so sorry!

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deleted_user
deleted_user

DO. NOT. CUT. No matter what. Everything will be fine, Steph. Just calm down. Breathe.
deleted_user
deleted_user

Steph, Dont CUT, you did nothing wrong by asking the father of your daughter to help you, ts his responsbilty as well. You didnt deserve to be yelled at ot have anything thrown at you. Im sorry to say I think you need to get away g=from this guy before he gets worse. You are young and still learning how to be a Mom. being treated like this is not helping, only making u feel worse when u did nothing wrong. Like MissPuppet said relax and breathe you have friends to help u through
XstephaniieX
XstephaniieX

Thank you both so much..i DID NOT CUT i feel a sense of relief but also like im a coward because i couldnt do it? x
deleted_user
deleted_user

never a coward. the fact that you didnt shows just the opposite. you refrained from it for your daughters sake. she is your strength and you need to remember that. you can do anything and you have the best of any reason ever to get yourself together and be there for her.
XstephaniieX
XstephaniieX

thank you. its easier said than done though when your in that frame of mind just feel so useless =[ x