My "wonderful" day off
Today was just plain awful. Not just bad, beyond that. I've been fighting almost constantly with my boyfriend all day, and that kills me. I finally got the courage to talk to him about seeing a doctor about my depression and self hurt, and his reaction was not the one I'd thought I'd see. I guess I thought he would be alot more supportive since it's been hard on him. Instead he was skeptical, sacrastic and judgemental. My hurt from that caused fights all today and the day just got worse. It got to the point where we discussed breaking up. Neither of us want that, but we are sick of the fighting and crying (crying on my part). I really do think that getting some kind of help would help us, take the pressure of him. Not that I put pressure on him, he just says that when he sees me struggling with my depression and SI, he blames himself because "I'm your boyfriend - I'm supposed to make you happy." I don't know where to go with this now, because I feel like I knew what I was going to do and now I'm lost again.