My addiction

Today I have realized that I have an addiction to foods. I grabbed a small candy, and before I knew it I had 10 in my pocket and ate them all. I can't go through my life living like this. I  never thought of myself as a person really susceptible to addiction before, although I never put myself in situations where I would get addicted to something. 
I also never thought anybody could be addicted to food. I mean it's food right, not some drug or alcohol. I know see that I was wrong. I want to me better, I must be better. I don't know how I'm going to do it, but every journey starts with the first step. This is my first step, I'm going to need a support group, because I know I can't do this on my own. I have tried doing it on my own and failed multiple times. This time I need the people behind me to tell me it's going to be ok, especially when I start shaking from withdrawals. 



I have been doing so much reading about food addiction. I can think of times in my life when I had it under control. But I always end up relapsing. I know this will be a lifelong struggle with me. I read about eating 3 premeasured -portion controlled -meals a day. And nothing else. No trigger foods. -which for me is peanut butter and any sort of bread. I just want to feel the freedom of not thinking about food all the time! I understand all the feelings you are going through! I am happy I found this group. Remember you are not alone!