Mixed emotions

Had a call from an old friend today which caught me by surprise. I guess I've been avoiding her because in some way I blame her for my depression. Unfortunately there is still some electricity there and I am not sure how to deal with it.
She seemed anxious and wanting to talk to me and I feel bad for being short with her. As we are always on the same wavelength I felt that she could read my thoughts about not wanting to talk.
I will try to communicate with her when I feel stronger but I am scared about what might eventuate (again).
"Baby you'll come knocking on my front doorSame old line you used to use beforeI said ya... well... what am I supposed to doI didn't know what I was getting into
So you've had a little trouble in townNow you're keeping some demons downStop draggin' my...Stop draggin' my...Stop draggin' my heart aroundIt's hard to think about what you've wantedIt's hard to think about what you've lostThis doesn't have to be the big get evenThis doesn't have to be anything at all" Tom Petty



Why do you blame her for your depression? It\'s important to be open with friends. Honesty is the best policy!

You\'re right of course, but it is easier said than done.

Honesty is such a lonely word.
Everyone is so untrue.
Honesty is hardly ever heard.
And mostly what I need from you.