Mixed Emotions

Well, I didn't get the job but I'm not too disappointed.  As I said in an earlier journal entry, I don't think I was completely suited for the job.  The next day I had an appointment with the neurologist.  She asked me how things had been and I said that I've been very well on the epilepsy front.  Between us we decided to leave things unchanged and that I'd only go back should the need arise.  I had the option of a six-monthly appoinment but I'd missed one in the past and didn't want to risk missing another one.  I visited my parent again over the weekend and things seem generally ok.  Dad and I went out for the afternoon and had quite a good chat with each other. On the more negative front, I keep reading all these hints-and-tips for interview techniques and the more I read, the more daunting things seem.  I really had to fight the urge to SI again this evening but I managed to resist.  It's been seventeen months since I was made redundant and I can't help feeling a bit anxious now.  With the voluntary work and studying, it feels as though I already work part-time.  I just wish I had the salary to go with it.

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hope u start feeling better soon i know my anxiety kicks up evrytime i have to go see the therapist LOL
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I DON\'T KNOW WHAT CAUSES TH SI TO ESCALATE WITH YOU TATTY.............I JUST KNOW IT SCARES ME WHEN IT DOES. WHAT DOES YOUR THERAPIST/DOCTOR SAY ABOUT IT?
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Im sure you will get a job in the end Tatty! You have your vountary work which is better than nothing! x