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Hi, I’m really new to this and i’m not sure what to really say. I do for sure have a food addiction and Im not sure how to fix it. I’ve been dealing with it  this for as long as I can remember. When I was a kid my mom used to comment on my weight all the time. She used to make me feel like I was a million pounds which made me eat even more. When I got to high school I shaped up a little however, college was a struggle. From that point on I kept adding on the pounds and I couldn’t stop. I’m dealing with so many health problems right now and it’s making me feel depressed. I don’t go out with people, I don’t even like shopping. I hate for my girlfriend to see any part of my body because I consider it disgusting. I know what I’m supposed to be doing And I can get it started but I can’t maintain. I seriously need help