Lonely and grieving but still alive
I am a recent widow. My husband Kent and I had been married for 25years and 10 months. Kent didn't live with me the last five and half years of his life. That was because of his illness and had to stay in the nursing home those years. However I was there beside him even then every single day and night. I only lived with in three miles of our home.
My husband died April 21st, 2016 just six days after his 69th birthday. Kent was much older than me. We never bore any children.
Over the last couple of months I've have been extremely lonely for his touches and his companionship so very much.
I keep saying that hey I still young well kinda of if you count 60 being young. I am not a ugly person. I am a Christian who is honest and has always been faithful and hasn't been in trouble with the law or even had a speeding ticket or a ticket for any traffic violations.
Will I have to be lonely the rest of my life and have no male companion to share my time with. I feel so alone even though I have been trying to find things to keep me doing. But it seems to me that it's not enough. I have the needs of most women, to feel alive and vivant again to be careful for to be held in a safe feeling of being loved.