I realized my prayer WAS answered
6-18-09 5:21am I realized something. I prayed to God 13 mos ago when my husband was elected to ask if there was something I could do to use this to help people. A month later I got really sick. I was in a wheelchair and in so much pain. Then I’m praying again “I don’t understand. Let me understand this. I don’t want to have this experience. Please God, have mercy, heal me.” But he didn't rush and still isn't rushing on that part. But I just realized he had answered my first and most important prayer. We have been able to help people. We raised awareness by testifying in our state’s House and Senate for a bill that would produce a Lyme Forum where Lyme professionals would come together to share information. Heck, we raise awareness every day when I’m out in my wheelchair. I’m now known to our small town as “the-mayor’s-wife-who-is-really-sick-in-a-wheelchair-with-lyme-disease” and I may always be known as that. That really gets me deep in the pit of my stomach because illness and wheelchairs have never been me. Definitely not what I would have chosen for myself but I have seen time and time again that God knows better for me and steers my life in the best directions. It’s an answer to my prayer. Ask for something and have faith that it truly is the best thing. I feel a joy in that. I have a renewed sense of resolve here in a situation that is challenging every single minute that my prayer is being answered over and over again every minute.