I give up, Im done with this

 I can't tell anyone, anywhere else, but I will get it out here.  I give up, I give in, I'm done, I've had enough.  The pain is subsiding, yet still there.  Not all the time like it used to be, but when it comes its more intense.  I have no one else to turn to.  I've worn out my resources.  I  am ready to go live on the street, or just stop living altogether.   The only reason I wait at this point is because I think crazy may take me back again.  So at this point she has won, I am now officially mentally worse off than her because she continues as if nothing ever happened.   I guess it was me all along that was nuts.  I can't take it, I love, I lived, I laughed and I cried.  My life was full and fun and painfull.  But I am finished with the turmoil.  Enough is enough,  and I am tired, broke and full of a pain that no one should have to endure!  The Bibl says that no man is given more than he can handle and I believe in the bible as complete truth, but yet, I can't take it.  Some have said I'm weak, some have said I'm selfish for feeling like this, so be it.  What else can be said????????  Please pray that sleep finds me tonight for a new tommorrow, otherwise, I will find sleep.